Double Hearts.

2009-10-16T14:59:00.002+08:00

HI .

I CLOSED DOWN FOR THE MOMENT ! <: .
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All you say, it's all pointing towards you.

2009-10-14T20:05:00.003+08:00

You know, what you say, it's pointing towards yourself.
Post on blog, or what so ever, I don't give a damn on what exactly you're saying. All I know is that, you're only trying to break our friendship over and over again. It's lame you know?
You always claim people are "Losers, Idiots, Stupid & Suckers", But have you ever stared at the mirror and thought about yourself? Stop accusing others of your own wrong doings, For goodness sake, I can't stand you alot.
Just because You're "Pop-ular" while your so Not. Such a Loser.

You can't stand people who Two-face eh? I can't either, Cause the one that has more than two face, Is You. Oh, I think you actually have 10 type of faces! -.- ' . Suckup to Seniors, And when you don't have people around you, You suck up to those "Losers" that you call. One moment you like that person so much, the other moment you dislike that person you start to complain and talkbad about that person. What a Human, never seen anything like you in my entire life time before k .

You brag so much, you fake up things so much, You have no shit originality & the worst thing is, You keep fabricating stories up. What are you. -.- .

I can't stand people like you, Friend-stealers{?}, and Friendships breaker. I don't understand why you want to do this to us, We didn't offend you or owe you anything in your past life time. Why on earth are you doing this -.- .We treat you so nice, Try to help you change, We accept the fact for what you're doing. &We really want to help you change over to a better leaf. But you aren't even helping yourself, You keep repeating the same mistake all over again.

I wonder what is the clique for, Because I still remember someone that I held quite closely, telling me that, "Cliques is a group of friends, supporting you in what circumstances, When you need help, you can count on us/me". Liar. This few days, I been really literally feddup with Liars. I had enough of friends lying to me, And I can't believe you actually do so too.

I give up trying to change yourlife, give up trying to be your "goodfriend", give up being there for you when you needed me. Cause I simply speechless on your actions.
You can PMS all you want, throw temper at who so ever. But, I know deep down you, There's at least a still nice (the person's name) I know. I hope& I pray .

Love Game. ♥

2009-10-08T15:55:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for 7Temptation .
Life's really different, Isn't it?
I can't believe I'm putting a mask that's wayy thick like Biology textbooks(: .

Anyone else heading down? Off with Coco, Fel, Finnie, Agnes, ShiTing, Yuntian, Peiqi, Shawn, Timothy & Co. (: . Guess I'm skipping School on the 16th Then (: . GG. Satisfied kkkk. Since my world's such a Spoiler, It's more fun to be like this. I'm Happy.

Instead of drowning myself alone everynight, It's time I spend it wisely with my Coco & Co. Ilovethem alrights. Getting them out of my life is like tearing a piece of Flash.

By the way dear readers. My Blog & Onsugar 's tagboard, are both related so Don't spam k, Cause spam one spam both .

&&&

Sheryl.Dhy
&I are no longer related, Through blood,
Through ties, Through friendship love,
Through bounds, Through abcL2K .
What so ever way, We aren't related anymore, Thanks Sheryl .

I lost EVERYONE, Who else can be there.
Such a Failure right? To see how people really actually
treats you for granted, I treated her like what? more than anything in the world.
But it turned out upside down.
Goodbye love .

Shopping can't even make me Happy. wth,

2009-10-07T17:05:00.001+08:00

I'm Pretty pissed with what happened today, &Alot of rubbish crapping out every single minute/second. Reality. -.-

Nevermindddddddd,
Go shop at http://modiva.livejournal.com k!! :D . Gogo support them, Cause I'm crazy of that blogshop currently , but nothing really catches my eye. :/ .

Okayyyyyyy, I Got this question.

Why when my 1Friend disappears. ALLL disappears at the same time ?

对不起

2009-10-05T22:25:00.003+08:00

如果可以代表我的诚意.

It's killing me right now.
If Sorry can't even prove anything, I doubt I would even be able to forgive myself. Maybe hiding from you was the worst thing ever. But showing how scared I was, could never change anything. Trust me, I suffer from alot of things.

When everything was turning right, It always turns out their the way, &One thing I realized. Everything turns right to the other way when it's coming to an end. Infact, it all turns out worst now. It's Oct, And everything was supposed to be right. But all the more, I get the feeling I'm losing one by one.

Joshua, I have been terribly missing him. (I'm not with Kelvin). I really had. All those fireworks we used to play, kisses we usually blew, and hugs we usually gave away for free. Many things. And, Ten things that made Joshua Perfect

His Kisses was the most sweetest one I ever felt like Honey.
His Eyes was the most cute one I ever seen .
His Words were the most meaningful one I ever heard.
His World was the most similiar one I ever seen .
His Love was the most secure one I ever felt
His Hugs was the warmest one I ever felt .
His Lips was the softest I ever felt .
His Room was the most cosy one I ever felt .
His Security was the best I ever felt .
Everything He is, Made the real me up.

It may be mushy or what so ever. But I don't really care. I know, My heart lies with him still. (I'm not with Kelvin) . JoshuaTanZhiWei, My Bestest Boyfriend one can ever have. Life goes through alot of ups and downs, Up till now, I still miss that thing so much, People that knows what was gone, Thinks I'm alright with everything now. But deepdown, I'm still the same. Cause I never ever brought that issue up to God.

Sheryl, Remember ?

School's Ended No More papers.

Sheryl, we will find that one broken piece no matter how hard it is.

Dephanie asked me to head down . :/ .

Post 200.

2009-10-03T13:14:00.003+08:00

You mean the world to me right now,
Cause if you go missing, I have no one else to turn to.
Every Tear I cry, your shoulder would be there, your hands would wipe it off.
Every Smile I make, your lips never fail to touch.
I said I would never love you, &I will pursue that line still ^^ .

My boyf means the world to me.
twentytentwelve.
One dream to pursue, One love to continue.
Babyy, you hold my happydays in your hands.

luvluv,
101208(thedayweleftapart) .
&countingmylove.

weareheading oneyeardearies. See your two years can really make it anortzx! (L) <: .

I make it in Simpleterms for you all,
I guess, I want to be with Kelvin. -Don't stop me alrightzx!-

hearthearts,
innerthoughts but itcametrue .
twentyeightninenine .

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Happy Belated Birthday Evan!

Came over to my place to celebrate Evan's bday :D .
Had funfunfun & fun i assume. Hehzx .
End of post out to meet bibiw! ^^

199 Post!

2009-09-30T20:26:00.003+08:00

Yay, I hit my 199 Post ^^ . But I'm not so often here anymore. I can tell too! ): .
Had my Bio,Chem&Phy threeinone paper today, &English LC. Suckerzx manzx my paper! Okay, Flunked LC cause I was half sleeping. Laughs ;x .

My stomach has been a idiot killer this week. Whyyyyyyyyyy, screwit la. Keep wanting to puke, and you know how irritating that is? Puked 3times today. But I still feel like puking, Had gastric then on off on off, get the feeling right ?
Can't laugh now, My stomach will kill me if I do so. Idiot. It's like a knife killing me, or a baby kicking my stomach. It's like someone taking out your intestine la! Irritating. It's not a normal stomachache that I can tell. ): . It's either puke or dontknow why it's hurting so much. I feel pregnant lah! (wth) . I can scream and shout due to the ass pain in my stomach kay. ): . I been eating regular meals k! That means, One dinner, and, Half lunch ): . Why like that!
Ohwellzx, ): Shyt lah. It's effying pain! ): ): ): .
Not feeling tooooooo well this few days, either lack of sleep or I'm really having headaches & feeling like i'm going to faint any time.

Yuntiann came over to give me a smallgift for idk what. Had h2h talk with her. Walked her to the bus stop afterwards. She went off to find fel & dephie to study.
x.shawn's killing me on the phone currently. He's trying to make me happy by asking me out, and what so ever. He's an idiot. ): . Kelvin's phone's out of batt. wth . shyt lah. My stomach's really a killer. COw.

Post another time .
&I'm done studying, Over and Done with it.

It's Life.

2009-09-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

Anyways ! 3Papers down, 6to go, &I will survive with His Strength .

Yayyys. By the way! Let me clear it to you first kayz.

Onsugar Is Not my daily life posting! ;D
Blog Is More about my daily day okay!

Alrights, post!

Headed to Ikea for breakfast after my unscrewed paper for the first time! Yay me! ^^ . Thankyewz for all those Prayers for my midnightoil being burned! Tmr's English, So I guess I won't be studying, But only for ChemPhy&Bio I'd be studying, Guess what, after Wed, I'm not studying anymore, Cause THERE'S NOTHING TO STUDY! YAY!!!!
Okay, Den's pretty Glam& Scolded her lover. Cause I couldn't stand guys like him, wth! People owe me money okay, Bused home with Yan, Chat on thebus with Dhydhy! But She was using her other phone, Shyt ass lah she! She doesn't want to tell me her current number, ): ): . I very sad Ok!
Kelvin skipped the morning or rather, he didn't had lessons in the morning. So, He came to vist me for awhile, Slacked at the bus stop with him. Saw Nicky and chat alittle, She had to head home after awhile! Then headed home!

@MIA .

2009-09-23T09:44:00.002+08:00

WHY MUST SCHOOL END ON THE 30TH OCTOBER INSTEAD OF 23RD OCTOBERRRRRR :( SUCKZ MAN :( KYM AND I SO SAD! :(

HI, I'M MIAing FOR THE TIME BEING,

Due to EOYs!

Any updates would be on Onsugar if I don't post here!

Kay Miss me Alright! ^^ .

PLEASE WAIT TILL OCT! or Earlier.

*Cause I doubt i'd study after 30thSep. ^^

ONSUGAR

2009-09-21T18:34:00.002+08:00

Because it makes you Smile.

It's running around my head.

2009-09-21T11:48:00.001+08:00

Take my heart, make me whole
Because I, just want to be where you are .

Songtitle anyone? .

Reply?

2009-09-20T13:03:00.004+08:00

POSTED @ ONSUGAR

20 Sep 09, 13:11

nobody: sheryl is chio.

Obviously She Is. (: .

20 Sep 09, 13:07

Amiie: When I came to your blog, 2 things. First, Your picture, seems like your hand's about to strangle me . Secondly, I thought it was some AL blog -.-

I won't strangle you lah! Actually I might. HAHA! AMIIE, No rights ! :D

20 Sep 09, 11:44

ray: rofl, oops, its not k anymore ~ its j :D
It's neither, J's in Jail .

19 Sep 09, 11:06

Mufffinnn: MUFFY LUV COOKYY! Muffin♥Cookie Alot! Must be happy. I know you love dancing alot, why give up! ): . Don't because of that big quarrel leh! Muffin Love Cookie. ): CHEERUPXXX!!!
Because Dancing doesn't love me, & I love you too Muffin! (: . that big quarrel means nothing anymore. I don't give a bloody dam. ): . & I'll try . loveyouzx .

18 Sep 09, 23:10

Cristy!: CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP CHEERUP! ^^
THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU! ^^

18 Sep 09, 20:57

NickyyyyyyyyyTXY: Coco! Relax. Alot of people going, Haha. But I'm not the nicky thats' going with her ): . I somehow dont want you to go leh Missy! Don't go! ?
Kay (: . Got Sheryl , I won't go . :D Xo !

18 Sep 09, 20:56

Coco: DONT GO CLUBBNG . -.-!
I WON'T YOU DONT LOR :D .

18 Sep 09, 19:47

Agnes: It doens't help.

I don't give a damn if you don't believe me.

Sorry DA.

2009-09-18T18:11:00.003+08:00

I Don't Wish To Dance Any Longer.
Cause I Can't.

Tags Reply.

18 Sep 09, 17:44

Passerby: may i knw who you refering to on your heypb post?

It's someone that doesn't concerns you.

18 Sep 09, 17:41

Hazel: Dont; like that ley ! D:

I Like what? It's not my fault. I'm sorry Nut Cracker

18 Sep 09, 16:46

Kelvin: Sry ):

18 Sep 09, 16:46

Kelvin: Sry ):
What's done is Done.

16 Sep 09, 20:05

Muffin: MUFFIN LOVE COOKIE! ^^ . IAnd SHERYL IS PRETTIER IN PHOTO ONE. So natural . Haha! ANd she looks moe to Sheryl on photo one ! :D

Cookie Love Muffin then! Yeah, Dhydhy has Natural Beauty(: . BOTH are sheryl lah!

16 Sep 09, 09:18

PAMELA: I LOVE YOU ALOT KAYS! YES I KNOW U LOVE ME TOO! ;D

obviously I know that you love me alot! Haha, If I don't love you, then love who eh? (: .

16 Sep 09, 09:18

PAMELA: I WANT PRESENTS! D;

Okay can!

15 Sep 09, 22:45

Sheryl.D: iloveyou kay babe!

I love you kay Dhydhy!

15 Sep 09, 20:15

Pamela: Relink me pls! THANKYOUZX WOMAN! IF U DON'T I'M GONNA KILL U!

You bear to kill me? Ohwells!

14 Sep 09, 22:03

Dephanieeeee: :D . RELAX, Black SUcks
I know, Black Sucks

14 Sep 09, 09:59

Pamela: HOHOHO WOMAN! I WANNA GO ON A SHOPPING DATE WITH YOU BUT I AM NOT FREE! ): OKAY! I LOVE YOU ALOT OKAY! (I cannot escape from you.) xD LOVE YOU LOADS! <3
Haha, I also want, but you got Exams when I end. You ah! Injued Leg! Takecares alright!

14 Sep 09, 00:29

Hazel: HUH? Your Cousin One Month look so, 1year old HAHA

That isn't. As in, That's my Cousin, But not the baby one! The baby one is Pure cute. But I caryy then Cry. ): ): .

13 Sep 09, 23:16

Nat: You ARE loved. I hope you won't just know that, but acknowledge that you ARE worth it. 02 Oct right?
Yeah, I hope I'm . It's hard to acknowledge that. Show me I'm worth it, Cause I can't show myself that, &Yeah! Nat finally got it in her head (: . o2 October 2009! ^^ . Loveyouzx .

13 Sep 09, 21:10

Carrinee: 're out after this finalyear competi ^^ . It's okay one lah. We won't die in his hands. Trust me,
I don't even want to go for final year. I can't dance. It's not okay. It's not. We will die in his hands, Admit so . I won't trust you after falling {: . Joking . loveyouzx .

13 Sep 09, 21:10

Carrinee: Cheer up lah, Micheal also scolded him. he's our new instructor. But we

Micheal Sucks.

Tags Replied.

Who bothers.

2009-09-18T16:38:00.003+08:00

F* . I hate Lies.
Disgusting.

Happy? Cause I ain't .

I still don't understand how people take you for Granted, &why.

Every tear I cried, was Because of YOU.
Kelvin, I swear, I won't want to love you at all. No matter how hard I try to stop my emotions onto you, You still come back, Let me tell you this & my dear readers. My heart has only OnePerson. &He's Joshua Tan Zhi Wei. No matter what, No one can replace him from my heart, I can time you & what so ever, I Don't give a damn anymore. But trust me, Patchback? No way that shyt's coming back. Once bitten four times Shy. Wth.
Kelvin, If you want to carry on living life like that, Then there's no ending. So what if Sheryl's your cousin. I DONT GIVE A SHYT DAMN . Doesnt mean she can bring us back?
I want to voice out my inner thoughts, but. I'm speechless everytime i try to. ]
Hardly anyone understands me, Infact No one understands me. Sheryl&Zoe can't even tell when it's real or fake.
I' finally lost all my Strength, to fake up that Smile. To fake up I'm so happy.
I'm not PMSing here my dear readers. I'm stating Facts. I admire people who can really put that Smile there for so long, Cause I can't . Even if I can. I will end up breakingdown. I cant cant cant. Don't you understand?

Where's that Spark & Fire now?

I know where, It's Gone.

Why.
Because You broke it, split it away, Tore it apart.
Let me think how to describe How I feel. ... I CAN'T . This feeling can't be Described into Words. -.- . I can't stand it.

Dreams, Thoughts, Inspirations, Admires, Loves, Every single thing.
Has been broken, Get it ?

Can I cry myself to sleep right now? Can those calls Stop? Can those Cries stop running through my head? No. No No Nononononol.
I'm very sorry Readers for this very Emo post . It's disgusting, but if you don't want to read. X the page, I don't care.
Blog's for me to type, Not for you to say, but all you can do it's just Shut yourmouth

End here, End now, End it, Please?
Take it as a BegYou instead? People that are torturing my life, Stop it please?
I can breakdown, I can do whatever I want, but stop ruining life any further please? My mind is about to explode very badly.

When life changes, Everything Changes. Everything I thought I knew, it all turned out Wrong.
Facts and Fictions, I don't even know what truth. Life's hard in every aspect, but Till I know how life should go, I shall be Okay, but from now, i can't see where' life's going. I don't even think I would be Okay.

Nothing is Right, Nothing at all. Why must it be like that?
I wanna run away, Start a new life, Start a fresh.
Pretend nothing happened. Pretending is Hard. It's a child's favorite play. But why can't I Pretend. Why? So many question, All I get it's just one answer, but it can't solve anything, Am I supposed to really leave? If that's the answer. Then Goodbye to my dear Readers & Dearest.
Remind iloveyou people for reading, k?
Thankyewz for those support.

Death won't solve a single thing. You know what would?
Move to a farfar away country.

BEFORE I END,
Love the Hell k. Some rubbish ass came to me.

Hey Pb.
Go ahead with all your fxck works. It's not my prob. For all I cared. You changed, My life isn't the same. It's fucking different. Like I care if I use vulgarities or whatever shyt, it ain't your problem. I know through this post, Yan you'd be absolutely upset me. But this time, bubble's burst. Look at how long I have been tolerating. All I get is one piece of crap? wtf. honggan lah -.- . Why don't you go to your dady and screw him instead, or even your brother, or whoever shyt, for all i care. Screw yourself that's the best. Irritating shyt.

My day's screwed. Official .
Don't bother trying to talk to me today, I won't change from that.
&Cb, if you dare, come out then say. Don't be so lanbye behind the comp. Act so dua, step only lah. I don't chap, that's one thing. I'm not a chao ah lian either. -.- . My life is screwed, but I swear. From today on, I'll make your life as screwed up as Mine.
I won't be Sorry for what I'm saying here. Cause Words are from my heart. I Mean it, Wanna make me suffer eh? I make you suffer Ten Times more of how you're trying to make my life screwed. Assholes. I hate actbig bitches.
Lastly, Who said You could judge me on what I'm?
I agree with Fel on what people think manzx. If you have a problem reading whatever shyt here, Add me then ; winiline_cyj-@hotmail.com . Fxck you -.-

Perfectly, Fine.

2009-09-16T18:41:00.004+08:00

Yeahhs,
I'm Fine, just Swelled Eyes.
Pretty Sickening.
Anyways! Heading to School Tomorrow, And guess what I heard. Mrs Tan's pretty Screwed this few days! AHAHAHHA .
&So must agree with that. :/ . Coco's coming over to my place on Friday. &Im heading over to her's on Friday Night. LOL . No sense lah! ):
Fel wanna meet me! ^^ . So, Saturday morning, Meeting Kelvin Jayy Sheryl Fel & Tingting! :D .

Short Update!

I plan to take part in the Mediacorp Competition ;D .

DueDate : 30th September ): ): .

I wanna take part in Cannon Marathon :D .

Date : 10th October :/ :/ .

Guess The Sheryl, Was playing with her on MSN lastnight, And found it rather interesting cause I can't even guess the right one. So Dear Readers that Know her. Tell me the answer kay ? :D ClickClick & Kelvin. I'm sure you know the answer one. Tell me kayz ? :D

WHICH EXACTLY LOOK MORE LIKE HER ? & WHAT'S THE SECRET TO IT . :/
I'm sure your don' get it. But, Alll look like her lah, With or Without makeup now?
Bloodbeetch, I love you :D .

(I earn ten dollars if I get it right!!!!!)

Omg, So Cool. Found this on Sheryl's blog.

SchoolSchool,EyeEye,DanceDance,HomeHome,OutOut

2009-09-15T19:08:00.003+08:00

LOL, So many things to do at one time ):!!! Wths.

Headed to School today, Cause of my Eye, Got chased home, Slept throughout the day, Actually not lah! Ehh, Yes lah D: . Slept & slept, My eye was a killer. It's bloody Small I tell you! ): . Can't stand it. Went for Assembly and came home like that. HAHA, I realized teachers actually do love me & are concern about me one lorh :D . I stayed in the General Office waited for Mama to come and like, 5Teachers came to me & stared at my eyes. x: .

&It's the first time TPT wants me to go home. HAHA, Huang lao shi is awesome alrightzx. And I think TPT has some mentalbitch ass problem. She's suddenly like " being " those irritating teachers that shout here shout there at people one ): . Where was the old Mrstan that I knew? eeeks! (I forgot to hand her the form, HAHA) I know you read my blog lah Mrstan. D: . Tagg next time kay? Don't be unknown silent reader. HEH!

Skipped Dance today too! :/ . Slept and pratically forgot about it rather, My eye is total keller! It makes me not want to open it and just sleep throughout. AHH. Supposed to see a doctor, but lazyy lah! Keep sleeping and my head has been an bloody extra killer to it since yesterday! I feel like going to puff all a sudden, wth, Where's Mike when I want him. -.-!

&&Guess what, I brought Birthday Presents & Christmas Presents. Lol ^^ .
Actually, Christmas present for Yann lah! I want to give her a present x; . But her birthday passed. Brought for Nat & Sheryl alr! Actually is MADE. HAHHA! Awesome rightright me! :D :D .

Lovely Kelvin just smsed & said :
darling, must take care la. you always fall sick one. i heart pain leh. actually don't know how you always make yourself like that one. you ah, say you dont want to fall sick on the begining of term4 till your exams finish, now your eyes like that. faster get well soon. I love yous!
(okay in the guyish form) with those singlish and shortforms. Lmaos -.-

OMGGGGGG, I feel like sleeping so badly .
I been home the whole day, & Guess what, I LOVEMY ROOM AND MY BED ALOT. With the pillows to make everything mroe lovely. They let me sleep any time i want. :D :D . But I feel like going out. And guess what hor. The only time I'm going out starting from today, the first start of term4 going out, will be with Nat. I'm grounded till Oct2 . x-x!
Nevermind, I wanna go out with my SHERYL! :/ !!!

I'm off to find eyedrop!
My eye's are about to drop, -seriously-

Damn the first day of school Term 4.

2009-09-14T21:47:00.002+08:00

Cow, If I didn't go it would
be MUCH better -

Wth, Seriously.
Teacher's had stupid mind.
Classmate's had idiotic mind.

Chemistry - Camped in toilet for 15minutes, slept during her lesson and boom, Recess.
P.E - Nagged the whole lesson from MrsTan -.- wths.
Recess - Que was Bloody Long .
Music - Okayyyyyyyyyyyyy lahhhhhh -.- .
English - Punished, Stand up the whole lesson, to be correct sat for like only 10minutes, At least I didn't get chased out.
Chinese - Talked the whole period, Almost got Chased out of Class.
Math - Stood the WHOLE lesson. HAHA, I slept the whole lesson lahh, Really tired like shytzx/

And seriously, Guesss what. Or What first, I shall start saying about this Cowed Ass.
Kasturi, If you push the dam blame to me for everything, ask yourself lah. The moment I say your name, my mouth already swallon lah. I'm not so dam free to bother looking at you and complaining. Please lorh, I Like making you get scolded, but wth. I can't be bothered to LOOOK AT YOUR UGLY FACE -.- . Get alive and stop being so thick skin lah please, Otherwise, I'll make your life suffer like how you make me suffer inside school(Winks) .

Official. School Sucks.

It's time I woken up.

2009-09-13T21:17:00.003+08:00

People might have scolded me,
Shouted at me, Scream at me.
And basically doing everything that,
Life is more than this and that.
&Thankyew.

Before I start,
I'm not gonna end it till I finish this kay.
I'm gonna make a Quick Update on my Holiday. (I wasted it:).
;Starting from, Wednesday -

Headed Home from Cousin's Place. Dance was a Killer on Wednesday? (Eh, Wednesday right?). Extream killer. Basically, Yesss. My skirt is currently Black, and Extreamly short compared to all my skirts at home. My Heels are like 5Inches. Crazy. Haha, &Best of all, My New Instructor LovesLOVELoves picking on me*Grins/Rolleyeballs* . I shall show you this Extream bitch ass conversation I had there screaming and getting out of DA for the first time.
Instructor : Winiline, You must dance more STRAIGHTup, Jump&Split more. &Richard, Must Lift her up higher so she can Jump.
Winiline : Wths? Isn't it toooooooooOOOOOO much? seriously, I Jump when he lift? I Jump and Split HIGHER?
Instructor : Yesyes, Let's start one more round . 1 .... 2... 3... ; Go .
(First Attempt)
I Fell and Killer my knee. WTHHHHH.
(Second Attempt)
Icouldn't SPLIT, guess what he did, He PUSHED ME RIGHT DOWN, AND LIFT ME UP. BLOODYHELL .
(Third Attempt)
I Went out of Balance and Drag Richard to fall with me.

HAHAH, COMPLETE FAILURE. Sucker man. Micheal isn't too happy with that instructor too -.- Wthzx .

Thursday,
Killer the whole day, when out with Cheryl, Weili & Hanan. Cow. Jolie cmi Last minute -.- .

Friday, !!Cousin's Out!! .
Headed to Aunt's place to meet them first, They alighted us at Far East. Shopped ALOT that day x-x, Cool nehx! Shopped all the way till 9 Then headed to Sarah's place. And Stayed there till 11.30 plus &&Headed Home :D Thenn, Went to find Bitch Felicia nearby house, till 4am, Crapped like shyt.

Saturday, Headed to Church. Nat & Tree's Treat for dinner, Had cell & lods of rubbish came into my mind, and that's what I'm about to post today ^^ .

Sunday,
Cousin's ONe MONTH BIRTHDAYYYY! He's SOOOO Cute, Really, If I have time, I will post his face kay. :D

-Pause, I feel like bathing for awhile. BRB eh-
-backbackback-!! .

Okayokayokay ,

Act like you don't care, it's when they learn .
Once bitten, Four times Shy.
Once Guilty, Forever guilty .

I regretted doing it, This few days, Joshua been appearing in my mind. It made me Smile. On how he used to use his weird methods teaching me Homework. After a few tries doing my homework during this holiday, I finally remembered how his method always worked. It really made me Smile doing homework(: . I miss him like how I missed everything, & I don't even find Justice in him going to Jail. I know he isn't those type. He can make me cry and everything, but it isn't worth it for him to be in there.
I did something, I felt completely Guilty for. I miss that thing too. I can't forget about that. I really can't. Sometimes, I feel like, That thing is starting to make me crazy, Though it isn't a living thing anymore, I miss it tonz. My life Changed. It really did.

Thanks to my Sex&Bomb, I really appriciate what you guys tried to do. I owe you people tons. But throughout all this, I really owe the most Thankyou to PJ & Nat. You both really helped me alot.
PJ; I know you will never get to read this, but. I want to let you know, You really impacted my life, changed my life after that day, I cried like crazy but it wasn't the worst. I really disliked you for what you did, But after awhile, I learned that, It was my fault, & You really did the right thing, If you weren't there to scold me and say me, I really wonder how would my life be. You might just be an ordinary person that can scold and say me, but seriously, You're special. Cause whenever people try as hard to say me, they take More than 4months for the words to get into me, But you. You took only 5hours, for those words to get into my head. I know what you did was, Torture in some words, but Thankyouz. I'm sorry that I lied, The guilt is really a killer, though I know you forgived, but I feel really bad that I lied to you. ): . But at least you know the truth right now. It's hard to say goodbye to someone that Impacted and Changed my life in ALOT of ways, but You're following God's word. Like Obeying your Father :D . PJ! You Must know this,
Winilineeeeee, (Not Guiniline) LoveLoveLoveLove You. {: .

I HATE GUILT. Really -.- .

&Nat! I owe you more than I have ever owed anyone.
Except for those shopping dates, You still owe me tons of it kay kay kay?! .
I Love You My dear CellLeader ^^ . If you weren't there, I still wonder how 'd life be. :/. Gone for two years? It's hard to Imagine you gone, I don't even want to imagine you gone ): . Ah, Forget it, I don't even want to imagine you Gone. HAHA.
I won't type yours here . Since you actually read my blog, Very hard to say one leyzx! D: .

Continue -

Guilt, It's an Extream killer first.

Love is Bliss, Love is Blessed.
&It's the best thing you can ever get.

But it's the worst thing once it's burst.
I . Want . To . Feel . Loved. ): .

Romance -
I still remember, I can't find Love. I really can't. From far I look, Everyone find love so easily. But why isn't it the same when I love some one. Cause It isn't love right? it really isn't. Is Love really so hard to Find? I Thank those people that Love me & truly do so, Friendship type of love in simple terms. But where's that Love that I always wanted, Yet I don't even know what it's called. I cry for Love, But I can't find love. To be loved, You have to love God number one first right? But I can't. I don't even Know who I love right now. Really. I'm bloodyhell pissed at it. Cause When I get to a relationship, yet I think I love that person, and when I step into that one Relationship where's there's both of us, I don't even think I love him anymore. Why ?

&True Love Waits .
(Because Every Heart Trembles, Even if it's Strong)

SK1 is the Coolest, with the AwesomeLeaders(: .

2009-09-13T01:33:00.002+08:00

I shall start by, My Yesterday! :D Since it's 1.33AM ): .

(Wths, I think my Font's alittle too big).

I treat life Unlike how You treat yours.
My life was mine to lead,
Not yours to make fun or toy around.
Now everything's gone, Where to turn to?

Before I start, I wanna sayy. Thankyewz to Nat & Tress for the dinner Yesterday' Night! :D . Awesome kays. AND, Thankyew Nat for sending me Home ;D .
HIHIHIHIHIHI People.
DONE, With all my hmwk, Smart&Cool ley ? hunnnnnnn manzx ^^ . Joy Helped me with my English Laughs :D .
-I really can't stand Window's Blogger. Sucksass.

POST TOMORROW LOVE.

STIUPID STUD .

2009-09-10T21:54:00.003+08:00

**** (Censored & Able to see In certain Couputers cause of IP edit)

My mind Can't let go of Audition, I damwit wanna play that ass game back.
But I can't. All the more, I play that game Neglect People as usual.

Beetch Mocha&Latte are siao-ing down there like some mad dog .
DuckFace

Shytz

Can I use Vulgarities noww my dear readers?

2009-09-10T00:17:00.001+08:00

Cow.
Cow.
Cow.

I dropped my phone into the Toilet Bowl. Xo Readers.
I wanna screamm out total lark of vulgarities. But bet I'm gonna get killed the nextday. Control(: .

Anyways, I'm lazy to update BCB. But anyone willing to help me login and addadd a new Ally? ;D .
http://h-aruharu.blogspot.com/ < Link fer me ley, New ally D:

MOCHAA LATTE . Wannt help ? x: .

Happy 9 9 9 [090909]

2009-09-09T15:03:00.002+08:00

HAHA, Happy 090909. And therefore for hat .
My nails are pinkkkkkk! :D :D . Heh , Sorry i'm being very wu liao todayyyyyyyyyyy. HEHZX, By the way EVAN want to be prouddddddd of me? ^^

I FINISHED, My MATH Paper1&2 andand My BIOLOGY!
Yet my Bio is full of nosence, Don't really now how to do cause it's not related . HAHAHA
Not home yet, mama's Very Sick ): .
Aunt's place, Heading to Bugis tomorrow, and Town on Friday. Miss my babe Charmaine lodz? ):
Felicia&Co. tooo! ): wthhs, Miss them lodz lahh .

OHOHOHOHOH , Before I forget.
Imagine me like this . (Causse I can't)

PermHair, (Bigwave) ;D .
Bangzxzxzx!
Contacts (CannImagine lah)
MakeupMakeup .

OHMGOSHZX. HAHA, I'm changing my looks, Trust me eh D: .

REMIND :D

2009-09-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

1) Remind Nat EVERYDAY, for the 2nd October ^^ .

2) Pray for JoyNg to Pass Piano Exam ;D .

3) Make sure Mama allows me to go for Camp D: .

My blogger's Kind of Screwed .

2009-09-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

Anywayzx , HIHI ^^ .

I'm currently at my cousin's house, & Plans CHANGED .
For the holidays :D:D .

Sunday was total SlackedDay home. Didn't go out but phone-d with Nat & Learned how to play Habbo with YAN :D .
(Yan's a Joker on Habbo manzx).
Monday - Today!! Felt bored at home, Clickkk's picnic got cancer-ed, due to H1N1 D:. Getwellsoon kay babe? ^^ Won't leave the name here D:. So came over to my Cousin's place, Currently Rotting here!
(Lovelove Cheryl&Sofiaa kayz)
Tuesday - Tomorrow, Sleeping over, having dance in the afternoon though D:. But I don't feel like going ley, Shyt ass to Carrine&Carissa .
(Birthday Girl is Currently Sick too, Boo man! Oneweek MC sucks right babes!)
Wednesday - Yan's Place ^^
(HAHA, SHALL SEAN GO?)
Thursday - Out with Karennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Idc idc idc, I wanna go shopping with her manzx, She's like the only person in my entire school that goes shopping. As in the one I know laahh! D: & LY TOO, But sadly She's Grounded ^^
(LY LY LY, I wanna go out with you kayz)
Friday - Cousin'sbombzzxzxzxshyt. Yeayea, We're off to town man :D .
(SUCCESS< SHOP TO DROP)
Saturday - Cowing Grouned from Church, wths . ):
Sunday , YAY . HOMEWORKKKKKKKKK .

Ohwells I'm really dying at cousin's place ): .
Off to blogshop, buhye .

2009-09-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

Remind

Nat.Y

2nd October

FRIDAY .

It made me Smile ^^ .

2009-09-06T14:43:00.004+08:00

I was rather bored, but I'm still veryvery down. ): .

Nevermind, I shopped my day at home, Haha, I can't wait to see how much I left in my bankaccount though ^^ . I wasn't in the mood to do anything nor going out, even leaving my room. Grandpa was nice enough to cook noodles for me, he knew I didn't eat since yesterday and was rather moodless, so he cooked for me. Ohwells, I still have no appitite, but I'm still on medication, killdiemenow.

Shopped like nuts, but I'm still rather bored. I'm scarying myself kay, cause i keep hearing noises in my room. wths.
Since my blog's so pictureless due to the awesomedeezgusting post below, I shall play with Felicia. (Insidething)

&&Thanks lovlies for the braclet ^^

Mainly bought those random things online, but I feel dead somehow still ohshit .
x-x, Having a damn headache scrolling around online, Goodbye I'm off to bed.
I'm getting damn lifeless. Shithell .

I'm Depressed, Deeply.

2009-09-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

): .

I'm. Pure. Moodless.
Describe how I feel, Incredibly terrible.

I can't commit myself to you, I can't put you Numberone, I can't claim that I love you more than anything else, I can't let everything go right now, I can't say I deserve your love, I can't say that you have forgiven me & I can't say that my life is controlled by you yet.

In this post, I can say that, I truly let down SK1.
When I act put up that mask, I realised that I can deeply tolerate with it. No matter how badly harmed I am, I hardly show it unless I really breakdown, But you guys hardly see it.

Before I Start posting everything up, SK1, It's for you now.
Lovelies, You have made me crazy in Cells, Laughing,Shouting,Crying&Screaming, You have seen me do it all. Maybe cry for Minor things, Like Snakes, Roaches & Dark eerre place, but I bet, you guys hardly see me cry for Family,God&Friends rightright? Okay, Maybe AllyZoeClaraNat seen most of the time. But, Yeah, For Physical stupid things, I cried countless times, Right? But, Have you ever wondered, why sometimes I complain about God so much yet you see me worship, so nicely? Peacefully? Like I commited & love him so much? Idk. But after this post, maybe you'd understand ?

Pratically, hardly anyone understands me- Agrees? (Smiles).
Find it hard to believe, but I can't even understand myself, I can't even understand what's life about, & what on earth does Life wants? Look how hard I try to survive to look at life in a different direction, I always fail to understand it. Life is some bloody ass. You people got to agree with me this, -Not (RollEyeballs)
My life, is destroyed like no other human being. Even I can't believe that, Haha, Other human beings can be worst ^^, But among my Kwute friends, I' think I'm the most destroyed one! :D. Ohwells, I can't believe I'm still smiling at the computer while typing this post, maybe cause of the entertament i'm having on msn. Ignore that Fact manzx. I love Life (Grins)
Correction{?}, I Love how my life is, Cause of the people around me, SherylZoeKelvinRayJoshuaJayyNat. ^^. Obviously, they cause fireworks to be fired up! :D. My awesome humans, without them, I think I was long ago dead with blood all over my body.(Wonders)
But I'm pretty depressed today, and I don't know why, I can't let this feeling end cause if this ends now' I would never be real ever again. Sorry, I don't know what shitz I'm talking here, But I'm kindof Down today. Threepeople spoiled my day, and maybe cause Kelvin isn't talking to me, Sheryl's not replying or calling me. Idks, but something is telling me it isn't cause of those thing. But one thing I know I'm down about it's I let God down, I can't put him numberone. I can't.

Today, the question been spinning in my head.
Why am I there when I don't dare to let him in my life ?

Life suckks.
Iwanna shoutscreamcrylaughburst every single word to describe.
Do I even have the rights to claim that he's my Father? My Shelter? My Comfort?
I don't want to return to Coco's hands. I don't want to scream in darkness.

Yesterday, I knelt down, Inside I was screaming, claiming that I can't do it anymore. Bursting inside. Like as if, Life is nothing anymore, I got this feeling, Suddenly Every big Sins, running in my mind. Helppp.

Everything is Not going to be alright

): . I miss you love .

2009-09-05T12:51:00.002+08:00

My heart's Empty, because you're gone . ): .

I miss you tons Joshua :/ .
I keep dreaming of you. One year passes so fast, & Look, Next Year May, It would be counted OneYear. After that, Imagine how fast 2 years would pass. But I really can't bring myself to face you, Even a visit.

Kelvin & Sheryl.
Cheer Up kay? :D .
Bestest&Loveliest!
It's okay that you both can't turn up today. But, You both got to stay strong alright ^^ . I would be here for you! & About that Cousin thing, Nope, I'm not mad at it, Cause I didn't even asked you about it. But it kinda shocked me though! Heh. We willlllll diedie meet up when the time comes :D ! & You both ah, I know you wouldn't be home to read this, Or else you would be home but sleeping. Haha. SHERYLDHYSHITIAN(Ps if it's wrong cheenaname) I would be waiting for you to be back kayz. KELVIN imakesureyoulaughwithkisses still kay ;D.

nevermind, :D . Off to bath! ^^ .
Goodbye ;D .

I want to go out! ): .

2009-09-03T13:37:00.004+08:00

It's boring staying home, SERIOUSLY. -.- .
It's like cause of my MC, I don't even get to go out ): !!!! Sucks!
All I do at home, it's just, Sleep/Eat/Medicine/Teevee/Computer. Wth! It's super lifeless without the double S, " Sleeping & Shopping " . Sleeping is not sleeping when there's no Shopping, RIGHT SHERYL!!!!! Carissa & Richard are both dying from one week MC too. Haha, Carrine wanna get sick sho badly, but RINE, I bet if you get sick, You so wish you wouldn't be sick in future. HAHA!

Ohwells, But seriouslyy ah! I feel so well alreadyy! And they are making me eat medicines like as if I'm an Drug addict, Life is stupid with Medicines! Heckzx, I'm going to school tomorrow. If Not I can't go out throughout the holidays, How dumb is that. -.-! I don't miss last days of school one laa! ^^ . HEH!

Nevermind, I shall start with me normal heroicc boring post as usual . but before that, I shall update about my week ;D .

Sunday ; Had Faith Joy Hannah Sarah 's Baptism.
Monday ; Headed to school for Teacher's day concert then metup with PrimarySchoolmates!
Tuesday ; Went to vist the doctor & cut hair ;D But no differents lahh .
Wednesday ; MC .
Thursday ; MC .
Friday ; I WANT TO GO SCHOOL KAY (MC) .
Saturday ; Churchhh, meet girlyys ;D .
Sunday ; Kelvin & MY date ;D !
Nextweek's .
Monday ; Picnic with Babes.
Tuesday ; Celebrate Yuntian's birthday (1Week Advance)
Wednesday ; Out with Yan (?)
Thursday ; KARENN , I booked you!
Friday ; Cousin's Out ;D !
Saturdayy ; Church ?
Sundayy ; Wedding Dinner . :D

Looks like my week's full . D: . As long as I can go out lahh. Sucks manzxzx my voice ): .

I have been posting tooo much about hatred of love .
& How I burn that word " L O V E " off my list, but I was wondering, Have it came back? I Don't even understand Love now.
Suddenly my word seems so dry, everything died, filled with black and white with no one there already. A place without Colours, No Pink, Can I survive?
All happy things eventually turns back to Sad things, Nothing last forever. Even when you're Rich, you will turn poor Eventually, When You are alive, You will die in the end.
I really don't know which way to choose, I really want to just stand here and not move anymore. Which Side to go, I have complete No Idea. I don't want to go into relationships, I seriously Don't.

Time fer Medicine, Post tomorrow Or later something,
Mean time, Im being so lifeless.
Bon'Voyage .

SICK .

2009-09-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

It's irritating which I can't go out .

2009-08-29T23:33:00.001+08:00

WELCOME BACK STUPID NAT ;D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LATE MICHEALJACKSON! ;D
DANCING TOMORROW CARRINE&CARISSA ;D .
BAPTISM SERVICE TOMORROW ;D .

Don't fake it up, Never.

2009-08-28T21:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLINGDARREN!!

The Sun's about to hit me,
I'm about to start the fire up.
Flaming so hot & bursting like never before.
Like is tough, Life is stupid.
But you're only living for the person you love -

Hi(: .
School was rather Okay, {: . Today's hair dressing, was a terrible experience again, Because the Dolly looked very very disgusting, like as if it had real make up & really look like a freaking bodyless doll, Walauu -.- !
Had CCA till 6? And Bused to Aunt's place, Hatehatehate mama. 101% -.-! Like wths!

But You know what, I feel super mean to her. Somehow ): / Shyt.

LINE' COOKED !

2009-08-27T21:17:00.003+08:00

Small Eyes & Fatness!

I miss you,
Why MIA now?
Maybe I didn't realized how much you meant,
When it's gone, You'd realize how precious it was.
Nothing can get it back.
One of those regret, I hate life.

^^ , & Surprisingly, I didn't burned down the PL Kitchen! Yayyyzesh!

Cute right? ;D .

I had nothing better to do, So I made this, HAHAHAH ! I know it's very bo-liao! But. Fun norh HomeEc ^^ . OMG, I can cook. But I swearrrr! I will never be a HOUSEWIFE ever in my life kays! Stupid narhs. -.-! Screww it.

School was fine? Lack of breath during Math! 4Periods again, Cause ChongFeiKim didn't come! ^^ . Ohwellzx, But MrsPhang' is mad kayz, 4Period I rather die in there. Slept for the other half an hour! -.- Zoe said I was sleep talking, Embaressing kay! Chinese, Uh got back paper, Want see my marks? ^^ . Haha, Tell you, It's freaking awesome kay! :D . IM PROUD OF MYSELF AT LEAST - .

Took photos at the end of class today, Had nothing better to do ^^ .
Upupupupupload .
OHMYTIANZX -.- Seriously, Screw blogger uploading , zzzzzzxzx.

Three things, JoyNg - Dance - Yan .

2009-08-26T20:17:00.014+08:00

Maybe more than Three in the post,
Before I start with my daily post, I shall start with a little photospasm ^^ .
It's not literally spamming photos, Just found it a little cool while going through ;D .

DANCE.

My Awesome Cher' That kills my blisters ! ^^

:/ . That's my prettyface's sexaye Legs!

I know her, but I forgot her. :/ . She's related to Micheal one right Carine?!

Baitch ! ^^ She's Hot Right? Omgomgomg, Cute lah she .

I was rather Random on this two, Cause I saw both of them Sitting outside ^^ Richie asked them to Pose for the peekture, & they gave him this. Cute right!

Omgomgomg, Dancing is cute kay .
I will not give up dancing, Or will I ? :/ .
I love to Dance, I want to Dance, It's part of me now.

Obviously it became a part! Rightzx!
18th of December, It shocked the fire out of me kayz, that our theme was.
Dancelikeneverbefore -
Omggg! I hit the paper's for the first time, HAHAH, as in Mate lah. ;D . It's uber cool I tell you ^^ . I stole this picture's from Micheal's Lappy! Currently in his car, Going for dinner. HEH. He's really very nice lah! ^^ . Carissa's nao-ing shyt crazy beside me, Richard & Lucifer are blasting music so they can ignore us. ): . Meany right?! Anyways! I loved my hair today. Cool neh! ^^ .
MICHEAL SAYS WE DID A GREAT JOB, I DON'T GET WHAT'S WITH THAT WEIRD INSTRUCTOR'S EYES. Gross lah, She's a killer man. -.-
Forget it. ): . I really got that bad feeling about 5th of Sep . Wtheavens!

I WONT regret the decision I'm making now, Or will I? But all I know is, If I give up dancing now, it's the biggest regret & mistake i have ever made .

JOY.NG

This Siao Lady Here. IS KWUTE & AWESOME .
I'm selling her for Ten Bucks! Anyone wants? ^^ . She's awesome & lovely & cute & nice lah!
But She's Scared of tickles, & Fears the Lord kay ! ;D .
JOY IS .
153cm{?}
29kg{?}
13YearsOld.
Lives at Pasir Ris .
Christian.
& EVEN IF YOU BUY HER, HER HEART WILL BE WITH ME STILL & NOT YOU KAY ^^ .
I'm trying my best to earn money here. SO YOU PEOPLE BETTER BUY , Last one! wantwantwant ? ^^
SHE'S RELATED TO ME THROUGH CELLGROUP CONNECTION! HAHAH. Iloveyoupeoplekay. But JOY, Must grow taller, so more people will love you, like the eiffel tower that tall ^^ KAY!
Byebye Buyers! Mail me at winiline_cyj-@hotmail.com, or tag on my tagboard or leave a phonecall or sms to say you want JOYNG . ;D .
BYENOW !

YAN &SCHOOL!

ohmygoshzx, School's Super fast, Imagine, Two more weeks Of school & Till EOY & One more week for Holiday, How fast more can it be. OHMYCOOLZX ! ^^
&&LOOK HOW FAST THE WEEK PASSES. Like As if Nat just left Yesterday! She's coming back On saturday ? COOL NEHZX ! ^^

I feel like randomly Posting Photos ^^ . Sit back & Sat the auto Scroll ;D !

CLICKCLICK! GIRLF&BOYF(S)!
Ohmyyycows, I looked through my photos, & I shall randomly upload kayz, Shucks Im inlove with girlfs ! ^^ .

VEEEEELATIONTYY! of copyrighted kay. ^^ Actually ah, No offence, but I forgot who was most of them alr kay. ;D . I randomly posting only nahh . HAHAHA . IT'S FROM MY THUMBDRIVE COOOL. Omg, I love viao to the MAX.

CHURCHIES .

MUAHH'S BIRTHDAY!

I know lah ,
I didn't take photos with
ALOT of people. SORRY LAAAAAAA.
HAHAH , I LOVE UPLOAD PEEKTURES TODAY !

Daily - Stressed.

2009-08-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Dance's a Killer.
History of Historical shyts are Stupid.
School's Rubbish.
CommonTest's are Dumb.

&From that you can rathe tell my Week as been not a good week or so. :/ .
*Using my Lappy, So there won't be peektures -

Headed to School today, 3weeks or Four consec-ative{: . Surprisingly eggs.
Mrs.Tan was awful picking me for FocusGroupDiscussion, Kinda rubbish though, but was okay with that, cause Yan was around. Bused to Aunt's, No one was home though(my place), Had dance, so took my bag & cabbed down. Late by half an hour though, Freakked. Ended around at Seven, Rushed back to Aunt's cause Had to do Project with Yan. Finished everything by 8.15. Mama came over to pick me up. &Home-d .

Empty Words / Empty Promises

I know people hate(s) Empty words alot, thats why I started thinking of posting about empty words. Mainly, from what people's point of views are, it's I always say Empty words, Like "Eh! I book you on ___, We go shopping kayz! " In the end, Don't have, Cause I know they will not have the time to go out, so I don't count that as Empty Words, It's I know you inside out to know that you won't fly to town with me. Saying " I love you " is one big example. I mean it when I say I love you, but I don't change it to I like you most of the time.
I love you to me, it's more of meaning to people really close to you. Hm? Agree?
But saying to the one(s) who you don't love yet like, It's really empty and selfish, I seen myself for that, Thankyewz people for waking me up to be able to see that though .
Empty promises have been the most stupid thing I have ever been through, I Truly dislike&detest&Hate Promises that are empty and go broken. Wths, It's like, What for promise then. Like Big Example.
My mom, She promises ALOT of promise to me, but who breaks in the end, Her. -.-

Very Tired,
Post tomorrow, So far, my week is a killer. School Sucks, Common Test Results are Shits.

Love, It's simple now.

2009-08-23T22:08:00.001+08:00

Love is Selfish
Love is Stupid
Love is Fire
&Love is Hell.

Correction, Brings you to Hell after it's Gone.

I find myself selfish for some reasons, &It's under the, Extra selfish when it's Loving Two people at one go. Maybe it isn't called love. It's just some other word.

Guy A,
I dreamt of him while having my afternoon nap today. I woke up in sweat&tears. One year passes so fast, Look back, It seems like yesterday was only the first day of school. Maybe guy A is simply too obvious.
My heart been waiting for him, my heart been selfish towards other guys who tried to make him go away. I tried to replace him with others, But I simply can't. After a short time, I start to realize, that the guy I'm dating, Isn't him. I woke up, I stood up. But I keep falling & i keep falling back asleep. He was the greatest guy I have ever met, But because of One Party. Everything went haywire. I missed him, I miss him. The greatest guy on earth, Went to Sydney, came back for about a week, and went to Jail straight. I made him have that cruel life. I had a choice for him to go or not. But what he did was simply repaying the price.
My life broke into pieces, shattered into bits. Cause of him.
I have never failed not thinking of him in my daily life.
He asked me to wait for him, &I didn't want to. Life is different without him, Life is different with that.
Joshua, I know you will never get to read this, but This is for you .
Joshua,
You were the guy, who never failed to make me Smile and keep my alive, my tears of joy and sadness was all caused by you most of the time, my days were stupid when you were gone. The cake and candles we used to celebrate our 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 month with, I missed those times. When you were gone, I tried to burn away the word Love away from me. But Love was always there, Love can never be gone. I told Every single one who asked me where or why we broke up, that " you went to Jail cause you made a bitch pregnant " maybe it was true, but she wasn't a bitch. I'm sorry I told lies about you, I'm really sorry. I'm still wondering, Should I wait for you? You mean so much to me, I can't let go, just not now. But if it isn't now, then when. You spoiled my entire year, You spoiled my youth, Cause of just one thing.
Joshua Tan Zhi Wei. I missed you. I loved you.
I Love You & I Miss You. Iwonder, are you fine living in there? Cause my heart fades still wondering about you.

And for guy B .

Guy B,
I played around your back, but still treated you like as if I loved you alot. I meant alot to me. But why disappear at that time, You apologized for disappearing, but that love wasn't back yet. I cried days & night for you cause of how you disappeared. Your love went straight to another girl infront of my eyes. I missed you like hell, But why is my heart beating so fast as if my heart's still stuck towards you. I can't let you go, but you stopped running through my mind, Was it just being coincidental that we met? :/ .
I Treat you as a friend, But why do you seem so call towards me .

Guy(c),
I want to patch with you. Simple.

Brackets() for Randomness. Kay! You don't have to know.

I want to burn the word love,
My heart beats extra fast when I see the person I love, But who on earth do I love. I can't be possibly having Two guys that I like there. Infact, I always say I love you to ____ . Isit so hard to Love someone? Or to find out who you truly do love?
Having a boyfriend/girlfriend is to spend eternity till you get married with and everything, I stopped loving, One of those reasons was cause, I wanted to stop all this crap, cause I know 14-23, it's another 9 more years. I can't live with a guys till 9 years, 9 months' possible at least. Life is stupid, I swear it is.
Love is weird, I swear it is.
My heart trembles for everything, I want to scream & shout, but not Cry .

Mark 1:13 .
Huhh? I don't get it .

Growing Fat, I love Twilight{: .

2009-08-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

Before I start ;D .

I was somehow VERY happy to see this, Like as if there will be no Sun In Singapore ^^ .
All Rain Rain & Rain, COOLS right! Hehzx

Photo One : I Look Guai .
Photo Two : I look Fat.

Two Points ! ):
- Growing Fat.
- Twilight equals Lovelove ^^ .

1) Growing Fat.
Ohmycowws, I realized hor :/ . I'm not eating weird proper meals, but eating Icecreams&Chips. Like whatthe! ): . I'm Fat enough alr, I dont want to grow anymore Fat! ): . I wish I could just chop my fats out of my body, (cools^^) . Okay, but that would be Insaneee! Ah! I'm so going on a diet, Cows, I can't stand being Fat, D: . Thats why hor,
I detest Fat people somehow x: . Sorrry! I influenced quite a number of people to dislike Fat people too ^^ !! . I'm so Glad, I only have 5 Fat Friends -.- . Don't worry, they aren't close to me at all, Just a RandomTalk type of friend :D . & YANandCHARR, You both aren't Fat, Want know what's Fat, I can show you my friend manzxzx, Not guy, But Female SERIOUSLY ._. ! Fat people are weird&ugly :D(i sound so mean) . ALRIGHTZX .

2)TWILIGHT.
I know it's a super super long time ago movie, &NewMoon is coming out soon alr, But! Coolest thing ever, I just watched it. LOL, I Used to detest Twilight cause of whoever "EdwardCullen" was, I thought, Too famous& Too many people like him alr, I will dislike those type of thinking laa (if you get it). YES! But Now, I'm crazily inlove with Twilight^^, AND, Thanks Alot Faith! ;D. I so love that CeeDee you lend me :D . HAHHA . I think, Newmoon the book is boring. :D, & I WILL START READING, Seriouslyyyyyyy! I'm gonna read BreakingDawn :D . HAHAHHA, Alrights, I'm nuts, Thanks to me watching it 5times over and over again. COOOOLS !

I shall start with this Normal Day posting.

Supposed to headout! But, Rained like shyts today.
Oh, By the way, I think I'm seriously going to get BrainCancer, Like wths, My head been spinning like crazy this few days! ): . Hate it can! I'm still super tired somehow. :/ . Headed out lastnight after home-d. Reached up pretty late. Slept till 1pm today ;D .
I Love My Life, Xo ! ♥.
Heading to School tomorrow, Shucks, The week just Began ): . GG laaa!

Saturday, Saturday, Saturday! Let(s) Look forward to Saturday till it Carrys you throughout the week! YAYY! ): .

Must
Survive
In
School

Like how I survived life without audi fer the past one month -.- .

SO SHAG ): .

2009-08-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

I'm very the tired, kay standard line!
Before I start this random normal day posting & all that crapz talk. I would want to say ): .

Lineeeee Misses Nat! Oneweek seems like Twoyears ): .
Stupiddddddd Nat, when you comeback you better read this okay! Cause you said you didn't bring your lappy to Aus! :/ . So I shall Say something dumbb hereeeeeee kayz ! (It may sound like a " as if you're gone for 2years " thing) .
Yesyesyesyesyes, ): I regretted hiding so many things from you, making me no time to tell you at all, since you're like as if gone for two years, it seems like, too many things to be said and I dk how to tell you when you're back! *Get it right?* ): . I know I'm stupid, &Yesyes you're stupid too aswell, stupid cellleaderrrrrrrr. Okay :/ You were supposed to meet me yesterday, but I let you off, though your reason was Not valid! I reallllllly miss you though you're not on the plane yet, or still somewhere in singapore in the airport! NAT. Line HeartHearts you alright! You better come back safe and not hit the twin tower (insideJoke) :D . MUSTMUST, diedie comeback. I have millions of things to tell you (I always say that) But I dk which to start first, Nevermind. :/ Come back then I say okay! DEAL . Butttttttt tell you something, I somehow uh, nevermind ;D . NATALIE YEO YIN/G WEI . Or idk what full name, Must remember this in your heart okay!
WINILINECHAN LOVELOVELOVE NATALIEYEO!
I will wait for this 2years to be over, stupid Nat, Now then run awayyy. ANYWAYS .
Enjoy your lovelyyyyyy trip to Aus! Cause You finally get your break ^^ . Bytheway, You study tooo much laaaa. One day I make you skip school and bring you shop the day off. HAHAHA, That day is so going to come true!
Xo, Missyoulodz♥.

CONTINUES :D .

Yesss, I'm tired Very tired -.-, Sickeningly, Yes! Okay, Cause I didn't complete my beauty sleep lastnight, as ZoeYanMin Came over this morning! She made me awake for 2 hours since 9am -.-! and she reached my place atttttt, 11am -.- ! Nevermind ;D , WILLING TO SACRIFICE MY SLEEP FER YOU TO ENTERTAIN YOU. Haha, She wanted to bakecake though, but mama went out, by the time she came back Yan lost her mood of baking so she started crapping with my Comm {: . Coolios, supposed to head to Joy's place, to bring her to the beach (insidething). But wasn't free cause had to do something ;D. So Next week! Anyways! Packed & Change till 3pm, left home around, 3.30 :/ Reached church at 3.55 ;D . PLUS, My skirt's simply TOOOO short today, Yan, Sorry, but I dont like My skirt ): !
Had church, Then Cell. Didn't eat but drank, Pill dropped on the floor, :/ and suddenly Actedup again. Superrrrrrrr detestttttttttttt hearttttttttttttttttttt xxxxxxxxxx1000000000. Shits -.-. Thenthen, Played Hui Lai Ba, and had cell . Cool&Fun :D !
Cabbed home cause had no ride home, Plus I very scared got people stalk me again So cabbed instead of walking. HAHA, The uncle is weird kay! Convo ,
Me : Uncle, Mariam Way, You know where right?
Uncle : Yaa laa, It's at loyang there right!
Me : Oh, okay yaya, Cause Alot of taxi drivers dontknow where's that.
Uncle : If they don't know then tell them don't drive infuture la.
Rightttttt, the uncle freaked me out, cause he was part of shouting -.-! Okay, Reached home, and phoned with Ting. My phone is crazyyy. I can't recieve messages, ): So sorry to the people who smsed me today! Anyways! I Love today, hardcore ;D. But I'm Sad ): Somehow .

Bye .
Tag Replys .

(FromTop) .

Uhh.

Hazelllllll
Haha, Thankyew very much for accepting my Invitation. ^^ !! Tell you Who's coming,
Apple, Kelvin, Darrel, Jayy, Serine, ShiTing, Felicia, Valerie, YunTiann, Yuhui, Timothy, Cheryl, Nicky & Kimberly.
Celine&Sheryl can't come Sad hor ): . !! &No you can't screw my tagboard!
Carrine&Carissa&Lucifer MAYBE ;D .

Allysa
Right, Okay! ): .

Alyssa(:
Hi, You are? ;D .
Uh MSN photos, by printscreen and then paste on paint and save!
Edit photos by Picasa

Carissa
YESYES, I think you very dumb, Sexass ;D .

*Rachel♥
hahahhaha, Miss you hunney! Haven't seen you for a really long time, How's Life manzx. :D . Yesyes meet you soon babe! Xo!

Agnes
): My line laaaa. I know you "Lubx" Me mah, I love you laaa babeeeee !

Cool like never before :D !

2009-08-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry, I didn't know to put the title as :D , But Seriously, Cool like never before! ^^ Inside Joke with Jayy, Teeheeeeeees!

I somehow feel like, I have forgotten everything that I had ): . &I Neglected and didn't thanked what I had. And in some ways, I have never ever said a "Thankyou" to my mumy before & meant it. I can say it to teachers&Friends, but i kept wondering, why not to parents. I admit, maybe I feel that, I never have been into the wrong before, but Everyone makes mistakes in life & I finally realized that, My mummy means much more than anything, without her, I would basically flunk everything. Life been stupid, cause I used to detest my Mom alot, Trust me, I hated her to the core, I ran away from home, i broke laws, I almost killed people, I hated life that I almost ended my life and ended it up in the hospital before even(: . &Trust me, I have never regretted one thing that I mentioned up there before, Okay maybe breaking laws, 2 of the bloody laws, I regretted.
I have never felt " family " before, never ever, not even once, I felt as if, there was no such thing has Family, untill I saw people with " happy families ", Like Yan's. I know, Every couple quarrels, Even mine, (they even throw vases). I didn't love them at all, I never opened my eyes before to see what they done. Untill today?
Maybe I seen how badly people wanted "Freedom"? But seriously, What freedom do you want, Some parents just give too much freedom that they don't spend time with you. Think back readers, I know that, Some of your in your mind will be like "wd*(s), Who would want spend time with their parents manzx". &Let me tell you this, Me, those who have broken families, those who are in the void right now.
Trust me, I have never sat on a table eatting dinner with just My family before, One will be missing no matter what, Or when someone comes, their the one goes, It's like that here(: . Okay, I know it's stupid but face it, Some families don't even have dinner together, not even with relatives?
I have all money that I can have, Even if I'm broke, I'm sure that my AeTeeM(s) would be willing enough to spare me money, Jayy Kelvin Amiie Sheryl Mayy, I have rich friends, I admit so. &MOST of them, their parents just care about money and not them. It's stupid really.
I know ALOT of children wants that in their life like E.g : (what they say to their parents)
- Walauu, mumy you care so much for what, Your problem meh .
- Please la, ____'s parents give her sooooooo much freedom! Why you like that
- Mumy, I wish that you weren't my Mom, ( I Said that before ) .

&ETC LAA

Remembered I said, I burn away Love from my list? It's not back yet, Relationship love are soo hard to find, Cause they aren't real to me yet. But Before I post about this "burning love" I will say,
I love My friends&God. I like my Family&Relatives{: .

Who Loves Me?
Youuuuuuuuuuuuu La !

NAT&TREES.
TAKE YOUR TIME TO COMEBACK
OKAY ! ^^

a) I miss stupid Sleepovers with Pigs :D .

b) Show you all somethign ;D .

I Know I look awesomely KWUTE :D .

You Reign.

2009-08-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the late Post.

When He Reigns,
I mean it, Cause this time,
I won't drag myself far.
Cause I know His presence is Near.

1Cor 6:13 .
It stands for M-e
because it's 613

This life is mine to lead, not yours. He gave me a life, and I could pick which road to follow. The one without him, or the one with him. Yeah, I did go the wrong path before, I went straight down and caused my life to be a total disaster. Life isn't life, I used to claim it like that, but now, maybe life has to be hard at times, hard cause you Sinned.
I shall give you an example, of how I was 2Months ago, from the beginning of the year :
Simply describ;
A total bitch, that doesn't think before doing it, taking things for granted, a person who actually breaklaws, disobey parents, kidnapped people's heart, toyed with boys for no reason, and all those rubbish.
Yeahh, I can't claim that I wasn't a type of person like this, My life was ruined. Maybe I still can claim at times, I don't own that future of mine, cause I don't get how I'm leading life, because of what happened. I took death easy, and when death was near, I cried like tomorrow's dooms day. I shall break this post, into simple terms on what I'm posting today, or else people reading will go *Crazy*, Not understanding a single thing I am typing cause everything messed up in the post and then, my efforts of typing will go, no where.

Death,
When I realized, my life was about to end, and it was as if, I had a time bomb in me, whereby it was almost going to explode, within less than 5years of living. I cried everything out, I thought that, Maybe I really took life for granted, I slashed, I burned, I tried to suicide, I tried all ways to get rid of life, but when it was a death by blood flowing in me, I didn't want it. I kept it in me, No one knew. Everything seemed no longer mine,
Everything can no longer be mine, but I know that, God will always be my side being Mine.

Lost,
I was lost, I panic all the way, till I walked myself till I was no where found. I fell into the biggest hole that I have ever fallen into, thinking that It was the end, cause no one was with me, No matter how hard I cried for help, No one was there for me at all. Not a single soul. I felt like, everything was missing.
At the deepest time in life, No one was there for me. But only He was.

Masked everything out,
I Hid my feelings, I wore a masked out with everything soaked inside the mask, My tears fell down no matter how hard I tried to control them. Every pain inside, made me scream and shout. I couldn't control, life was beyond my hands. It isn't me who plays the puppet of me. Maybe it isn't only in the past that I masked all out, I was afraid of people that judged me, I was truly afraid. I disliked people who Judge me, I always went ahead with my line "basket, you don't own the power of judging, so just shuddup and stop Judging me, Cause You aren't allowed to do so asshole" my line was mainly like that. Untill now, I realised I'm still masking everything up, unable to let go of it.
When God leads the way, Just follow.

Trust,
Hard to trust, easy to break. (nevermind if you don't get the line). I can say, I trust a number of people, but in me, trust is simply two different things.
1) Trusting that person, that you know will never leave you .
2) Trusting that person, like tell him/her simple secrets.
Get the differents, ohwell if you don't, I pray that you will get. A group of people that I trust that I know will never leave me, (Yan-Nat-Sheryl-Kelvin-Joshua-Jay), I trust those Six they have been there for me, never failing me, maybe those unmentioned, you fall under the second group, Like Eg (My whole ClickClick), They all fall under the Second one, and maybe Sk1 too. (: The people that never fails to brighten up my day. But, under the second one, my mask never fails to be stuck towards me. :/. Is trusting that Hard?
Am I supposed to say, God I trust you? I wonder, Do I trust him more or Yan&Nat more.

Tongues.
I really wonder. Is it really me? why is Faith so hard.
1Cor 9:_ , aiyoozx. Something lah! It's Faith Hope & Love will last forever, The greatest of this is Love
Is there even Forever Now? :/ .

2Vids.

Happy Birthday Valerie♥

2009-08-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday my Dear cousin,
Your Nine & It's for you to grow up already.
Though you always bully me & etc.
You're still my cousin though ;D .
Loveyou Xo.

Churched yesterday, Reached at 4 ;D . Before that headed off to the beach, Straight after beach didnt want to go home, so couldnt wear shorts to church also, and didnt want to wear skirt or dress to the beach, so wore this onepiece shirt ;D. But it's damn irritating when you go toilet alrights, ): . So met Kelvin for awhile first, talked to him about dotdotdot, he made half of my day though ;D . Met Yuntiann and Apple :D They both sneaked out from home. Lol (: . Okay, it's official that ALL my girls are grounded, May&Amiie&Reborn&Hitachi, all of them Alevel they restrain themselves for going out, so they aren't gonna meet me. The rest O level. Ohmama. ): . I'm supposed to return for DA, and even on Saturdays now, Shucks, Cause I hardly have time to practice Nine ): . Neverminds. Meeting Carrine&Carissa on coming Thursday and Tuesday, wths, I'm getting sick of DA, my leg hurts! ): .
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Churched Yesterday, reached at 4, met Charmaine, and Faith, Hannah was stuck in the rain with Yan. But Yan cabbed to church, lazy to eleborate. Went up for service & I'm the Cell Phone-Offer. HAHAHA! Okay, had Area dinner, bought food but ate a few mouth and didn't eat. :/. Had no appetite kay, wasted 3.80 -.- ! Cough was a killer yesterday, ): . Hate it. Had cell and blahblah, Lods of things ran through my mind, And speaking in tongues ): . Hello? Am I just following someone's voice or isit really me talking ? ): ! I'm blur kayzx !
Had Cell and reached home at 10.30, chat with Terese on the phone, complained to her about mama like shytzx. Cause was damm pissed. Ohwells, My house feels weird without dady ):! Dislike it x10. Okayy. &Thats all .
bytheway SK1.

I Love Sk1, with all my Heart.
The best I have ever had, Xo♥

&Phil, I don't think I have to explain to you anymore.
Cause the way you treat me? You told me love was real
and etc, but what, I know I always tried to make you jealous,
but it was impossible, when you weren't there for me yesterday.
When I wanted to tell you something major, You ignored me.
I'm okay with it, cause I knew you were busy, but you didn't
want to admit so. I continued talking and you ignored my words again.
I'm sorry for being like that, I told you i didn't believe in love,
And this time is real. I will not believe in love in relationships
anylonger, cause everything is just a lie, nothing's true.
those promise we made, those words you told me, either i was stupid to believe
or your words were just too nice to be trust, I wanted to say
you were the best I have ever had, but no. You aren't.
Though it's only less than a month that we both started.
You gave me alot of happiness, tolerating not to be angry at me.
&Etc. I Thankyou for that. I'm a bitch in everyone's eyes now.
And im okay with that, Cause you won't need to lie to me
anymore, everything's just my fault. I can never be nice or good.
I changed from sheesha(s) and everything cause of you.
But I really wonder, will I go back to those things when you're gone.
Thanks Phil, It lasted at least for awhile .

I Dont like today -

2009-08-15T13:07:00.000+08:00

Super ( F__________)Cows in other words. Pissed alrights ! ): .

I hate people on the phone who, naturally call you, and they are multi tasking, but they ignore you on the phone like some asshole. I hate it alrights -.- .
Anyways on th phone with ahbeng ^^ , Kelvinn , Xo ♥ . Yesyesyesyesyesyes, He kindof making me happy and we went insane on msn. He said can't post his dp, so Censored his face & body . LOL . But it looks like, dont even have his peekture on dp . basket him .
RachelNuer ;D , You offline, he online HAHAHHAH !
Going out alr ,

Had a big fight with mama, Anyways My aunt gave birth two nights ago, ohhwells . :/ . New cousin . Hahah, Anyways, Really off already, time to do something, heading off the house, can't stand staying at home,

if i'm not home, maybe i'm uhm, Church or Some random place.

Goodbye people .

& Phil . Say if you're busy instead of just ignoring . Stupid Salt .

Tags reply.

2009-08-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

I'm only being nice to reply tags, Cause I'm super feddup-ish to reply kayz.

Qiuyan! :
Hellllllllllllllllllo! ;D,

Carrine :
Cannot one lorh ): , But at least Can make it alr lorhzx. Anyways! Heading down for DA soon. ): I can't believe Albert's still hosting it, Ohmycows.

Doggy :
You forgot, I made you lost your skills & Etc ): . I'm sorry, And No more fake smiles .

Angie :
Of course you're here, you aren't dead yet you know asshole, Xo.

Bella :
^^ Thankyewzx, Hahaha, I think the way your name was placed on the Tee, is super cool alrights. ^^ Thankyews Pretty Bella! ♥. Anyways, Isn't that the song that not only I sang :D .

Sarahhhhhhhh :
Oh whatever - Shutup .

Sheryl.D :
Duhhzx, You always tell me one. haha Thanks to you too! & Time for a celebration, ohyeah! :D You treat? HEH!

Kelvin :
Since when you so think skin worh, Ask people call you for dinner or party celebration, this one so big to celebrate ah ? :D . I know you love me, yesyes obviously you do! Xo ! &Yesyes, Where's my Candlitdinner Chicken ? :D

Charlene :
Later ;D . Lazy to update now.

DEPHANIE :
Ahemm, Hahha & Yes obviously! YEsyes, ThANKYEW ^^

Agnes :
Cause I skip injection, ♥

Jayy :
I where got Jio kelvin, Is he jio me one hor ( Winks ) . You lah, Bo jio me one Jayy. Got new girlf ah, bo jio me, neglect me alr ! ):

Cherlin :
Like obviously! Pink is the new oh-so fabulously love!

May :
The quiz said so . HAHAHA

yingling :
Eh Sexyass! I missed you kay, & Relink suresure, lazy update now lahzx !

Hazel :
Where got, I copy XiaoTiann's one. HEH!

xiaoyuu :
Eh! Why scold me PCB . ): . I so guai, & The meaning of xiao doesnt suit you, Cause You arent xiao at all lorh! Yesyes, meet up soon shytface!

Darrel :
Ahbeng nehs

DEPHANIE :
Once a month can go out alr considered good norhs! ^^ . Anyways, Your mummy isnt that bad. :D . Jiayous, Olevels' round the corner, soon can go out one lahh!

Amiie :
I want to say, I hate you! -.- !

Kayla.Y :
Hello Nuer, ♥

Hannah :
See you later NAH ! :D

&Felicia :
Of course, Screw Chem manzx!

Yuntian :
Obviously you must love me laaa, Though It can't replace, but its okay lahh (: . I only want to read finish that book, thats all. & that book was a gift , that's probably why I was so down ? (:

♦Kimberly :
Ahlian, Why you type untill like that . zzzzxxxzzz

NickyyyyyyyyyyTXY :
Cause you love me , Relax. Life isnt all like that ^^ !

Screw the person who stole my book! ):

2009-08-14T19:35:00.000+08:00

Line's very screwedup, & chao the messed up): .
Let me tell you kayzx .

Survived in school for another week, cause this week was total CommonTest. So had to go, Wednesday took half day, throat was literally sored. Today, Had 4 Lessons of English, before I elaborate the stupidness of English lessons of 4 periods, I shall tell you how today went.
Kym seemed PMS-ing, so didn't really bother her, sticked with Yan throughout the day again, Laugh&Rubbished around with Clique. Had two breaks today, went class, Had All relief teachers again. Teacher's goes MIA, Except for English, that took up lifestyle, Quite irritating though. Kay, During lessons, I wanted to find my book to Read kay! I'm really obsessed with that book. Sadly, I thought I left it at home, came home washedup and everything supposed to meet Touch (-Winks to Amiie ;D) But wasn't free on the lastminute, so had to cancel that date. And i was supposed to meet People at 8.30 or rather, is going to. Crapping with them for awhile, Plus I'm going on traveling around my area that I live at. Hahaha. Oh yeahhhhhhhzx. ): I'm still super down, I wanna be happy yet I can't. How stupid more can that be, Cause of that one book that got Stolen. Helllo people? It isn't at home, And I know I didn't take it out from my bag, Screw the world really, & Screw the person who stole my book hardcore. I want my book back! ): Missing it like hellll. Ohmycowws. ):
I want to cry already okay! ): Im completely moodless.

Onsugar-ed .

On Sugar.

2009-08-13T18:47:00.000+08:00

http://fabulouslovestyle.onsugar.com/

Hi .
I think OnSugar's Coool.
:D , Anyways, If I don't post here, Means I'm thereeee! Kay!
:D Don't worry! I will still update my bloggggggg one lahzx .
Hahahhaahaha.

Linee Hearts Yann, ♥

Chemistry to go .

2009-08-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

Ohmycowwws ^^ .
Tomorrow's the lastpaper, and I can finallllly be out with Girlyys again! :D Or rather like what people always say " Miss die youu, " Yeaps! Miss you lodsss babesssss ): . Ohwells, But can't meet up with ALL of them, some got grounded cause of prelims! Pityy you narhs Hilary&Dephanie, Till Os. HAHA :D . Nevermind, Cheerups! I'd be on the phone to scream and you still ^^ lovedieyou!

And, YES! Idk how to study for chemistry. Save me please, I forgot what's PH all about kay! I know is horriblee ._. to forget what you studied in school. Told you i have been wasting my life time, Ohggggggggggosh. Atoms, Molecules, Ions. Kell me right now! -.- I literally feel like chopping MissHeng&JoyceChong. I tell youuhs! It's damm feddup whereby you don't know what the shyyt they are talking about. Screw them.

And even before I screw them, Screw math today please.
Cows?! I Didn't managed to finish the paper. My mind went blank on the Thirdquestion, Literally blank i tellyou! My head had nothing inside all a sudden -.- . I forgot how to do converting, and the stupid Gradient&Intercept, and Screw Rate. Really, andand that interest thingy! I tell you! I HATE math! ): . I wanted to cry lahh, when PensDown. StupidPig. -.- . Nevermind Flunked Math, Horrayy for me then .

Andand, I Forgot to bring my Phone to school today, So everyone thought I got robbed how wonderful :D . & Some even thought I lost my phonee. Smart rights! Yeapzx, Before that I thought I lost it too. Was freaking down :/. But found it in the end, At home. Smart rightzxzxzx .

OH,yesyes! Today was considered a Slacked Day, had mainly ALL relief teachers. Except for Chinese. But was sitting in class, doing nothing. Sleeping in proper words, or Reading :D . I tell you, I'm super obsessssssed with reading my book. Yan&Manda things I'm weird all a sudden, okay not only them. But I LOVE that book alot. ^^ . Trust me, go read it, even an asshole like me can read that stupid book. No worries, it isn't threelittlepigs. HAHAHA!

I've been talking to my Ahbeng&Ahlian friends. HAHA, if you read my tagboard, we were talking about why they like to put a " xiao " infront of their name. When they are so " Da " really lo. Guess what, I asked "Xiao"Yunn, why her name must have " xiao " infront. Guess what she told me, Cause I'm not that big&scary like those normal people. Wdhs? Then what, Am I supposed to be "Xiao"Line? To be not big&scary. Babi you yunn -.-! Dont worry, she isn't yunntiann nor yunn dontknow what, she's just some random chiooooooooo ahlian :D . & Darrel is too, he calls himself, "Xiao"rel . Whatever that is -.-! I don't get why all of them are camping at Serangoon Garden there. Pub, Clubbing Etc. -.-!
( don't kill me ahlian or ahbeng(s) that are reading this :D ) .

I've been wondering kay, And I want to bring my those weird lian&beng friend(s) to church, They can be " bitchy or basket " still, But Don't you think they should wake up from those troubles :D . Hehhzx . I know Who's going to kill me when he/she read this. LOLOLOLOL :D . Anyways! Namiko is kwute lah! Don't fight with me. :D

*Obsessed :D !

True Love Waits.

2009-08-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

If you love me,
You would wait for me.
If i loved you,
I would wait for it to be true.

I have no idea why. But I felt like posting this up.
I'm really Sorry to those who I have actually broke your heart -
&This shortpart here, is dedicated to you people .

I may have hurt you very badly, but letting go sure isn't easy. Both parties will eventually cry their heart out. I admit, I did. Especially those who left specially memories behind. You guys really made me Smile, but I made you guys throw temper at your friends and etc. I maybe stupid to post it up here. But I don't mind, Cause I find it, it's me who made a very big turn to you guys. I really hate it.
I changed some of you, cause you changed for me. Some for the better, but some after we brokeup, you guys became worst? Some of you ended up in Jail because of me. Rights? I Know Joshua sure did because of me, Darrel did indirectly cause of me. And the rest, lost at least 2of your friends. And even needed to be wokenup very badly. I know after I broke up with you guys, I shouldn't even know about this. But I got my ways(: .

I will continue posting later, Speachless at the momment.
From something I saw at MSN.
Anyways, I got tagged to do this on FB .
But lazy to Note it up, So i rather post it up first.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

POstpostpost,

2009-08-12T16:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, I've to so got Import all my post .
Blogger's Super screwed . -.- !
berightbacks !

Sing me a lullaby.

2009-08-12T10:24:00.000+08:00

Sing me a lullaby,

Truth out,
Lie erased,
Mask down,
Till then, all this will be said.
Everything will be done,
No more there.

No worrys,
I don't evenget what I am typing .

Today, wanted to skipp school, cause my throat was a rather keller.
Went school for CT. My throat was still killing me then. Mama told me to come home after CT, so took half day. Wanted to go to the Doc, but dad was urgent after awhile and needed a car. Mummy didn't want to cab, so fetched me home instead, she went out like usual. Home all day. Super sickening tired. I'm reallly sorry Yan. For giving school a half day. :/ I tried my best staying in school for the whole week, but Look, I can't even stay 2consectitive. Linee's a asshole kay. ): . Alrights. Heard there was English Test, Not like I didn't go to school, had my attendance taken, not like i skipped school, so Yeah get a re-test. AH! My throat is out of voice, shuckzx! I wanted to stay in school today kay. Not like i wanted to go home on a day where I can end at 1.30? ): . I'm getting fedddddddupzx with my week. CauseI'm still wondering Tomorrow's Chemistry paper or Math. o-o !

I flunked today's paper, correction, the back part ohwells.

Meeting Kelvin later for a shortwhile, He's having Prelims and he's coming over, Clapps. I don't get what's with him kay, Making me Jealous when he gets to go campp. And I tell you uhs, He goes camp to study. -.-! I was quite stupid to hear that, He actually wants to go camping with me :D. Isn't that coooool!
& Kelvinn This is dedicated to you,
I know we seldom go up, cause nothing have ever came acrossed both our ideas before. Though there might be a thousand and one misunderstanding between both of us, but you always gave way to me. When you were sick, You still bothered coming to find me on our 10th month of friendship? Idkks, but you are really special {: . Despite age gabb, you were always there for me. You never cared what people said about us. Though you claim that we both are together, yet I don't think we are together & im sorry about that. :/ .
I used to be an ultimate bitchyy girlfriend of yours, but now, I guess i'm an ultimate irritating childish annoying small person infront of your eyes. I thank God alot, for this friendship, for the chance to be as friends again.
Though you know it's kindof impossible to be back with me again, and when i became that selfish coww infront of your eyes saying " Okay, You want wait right. Wait 2years then. " And you really became my Duck to want to wait for 2years. ^^ . I don't believe you can do it, cause no guy ever waited for me for 2 years, okay maybe one? Idks, But trust me, No guys can survive 2years without a girl in their hands :D, Especially such a "dreamguy" for most females.
I describe Kelvin fer youuzx.
Rich, Which female doesn't want to be a Taitai?
Kwute, Whodoesnt want an adorable boyf?
Goodlooking, No one wants to kiss a ugly fella rights?
always there 24/7, No one wants a clingy one, but he's there no matter what.
Only have one person in his heart, Duhhzx, He's not a player! :D
Okayy, Enough about that :D He's going to kell me if he sees this. Haha, But no offence, Kelvin's really a very nice guy. Though he looks, okay compare me and him. He's a Poly Uncle :D . & I'm a Seconday school chidlishh weirdo ^^ . People see us together, Okay maybe more like brother&sister. HAHA!

Tell you a Joke.
It was at some random place, Kelvin treat me :D .
K : Uh, Bill please.
W : Huhh you pay again?
Waitress : Stares. Who's paying ?
K & W : Uhm Me .
Waitress : Someone quickly pay!
K : Patient, Money will go to your hands later one laa.
W : I paying, -takes out card-
K : You shutup, - Snatch wallet-
Waitess : woah, So nice uh, You know I hardly see brothers paying for their SISTER' here.
K : EHHHH, WHAT SISTER .
W : x: , Yaa! How you know he my stupid adorable brother.
Waitres : you both look alike mar!
K : Uhem! .

Ohmytianzx lah, You should see his face mans :D , Brother&Sister. HAHAHAHA.
I Realised ah Kelvin, when I go out with you, We only end up quarreling over stupid things, and you always diedie won't want to admit it's your fault ^^ .
Guyyyyyyys tend to lose face someday right? HEH!

Alrights, I Love my ClickClick!
&& I love my Yanny! ♥

XoXo. ♥

2009-08-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

Thankyou Friends.

Laugh like never before,
Don't fail to put on that Smile for that one day.
Enjoy everyday of life,
Don't fake it up.
Smile like never before,
It's okay still .

In fact, I'm rather stuck at home today. Rejected a Number of people. And cancelled 2Dates today. Wonderful ehs? Didn't had to mood to go out, but I find myself rather lonely at home all a sudden, Computer/Sleep/Phone/Bath/Eat/Study(?)/Teevee. That's all. From life at home being so restless like that, It seems no different from death though, I really wonder, how would death be like. Hm? And, Don't worry. I'm not sick in any sense, I don't have Cancer or what ever, I know my post been rather dreadful this few days, but Yeah, Relax okay? I don't don't don't have cancer, I'm alright people. &Yeah, for people who know what's happening.
Take it as my lastwish? I don't want you people to treat me differently cause of this, but treat me the same, and don't let people know what's happening at the momment, as in, those who don't know what's happening, I will explain and tell them myself alrights?

Have to accompany my elder brother.
He's running a high fever. Pray for him alrights? Cause I will.
Post later when I'm back.
Tyvm. ♥

//Edited 4.26p.m.

Backzx,
He went to the Clinic, Ohwells! ): . He's Fever hit 39.2. Fugged, ): . But hopefully it isn't me who passed to him. The best thing on Earth, He gave me his girlf's number to message her and say that he's not feeling well and those mushy message, Eeeks? Kay!

Ohyahhhhhhh,
Thankyou Clickclick! Though I know you're trying your stupid best to makeup for what you have done or for me to tell you, things all a sudden or those who know, or thinks so, THNKYOUZX. I like your present alot ^^ Though it's just paper with Pen Ink & Printer Ink! Hehs! Cools rights, ^^ Though it isn't Pink in colour, I dont mind. Haha, And thankyou for that wonderful shirt too! Love it lods! I really wonder ah, Why that shirt so special, Got Kelvin&Jay''s name there. LOL. It's like ,
Front left bottom, Got my name, then a bigbig Pink heart in the middle with the " clickclick " on top stuck to the heart, :D . Cools and pretty lah, then the back got Alll of your names. LOL, Then got special heart there, " Kelvin Jayy & Sheryl " Love it lods okay! :D . It's like uber pretty ^^ . Hahah, I know lah, But won't die de :D .

And YES! Thank you for that Kwute Shoe ^^ . It's like damm adorable, PinkPink, &Black HAHAA. I really wonder why you all so weird. ^^ It's not my burfday youknow ?
& For once, It's like, not even Coming yet. Hehs .

&&yesyes, Random Fact.
I Love Sandwitch with Ham&Cheese ^^ !

//Edited 5.53Pm.

Okay! Just ended a Phone call with Stupid Nat :D !
Eggs, She's going out with me on Friday, (Hor Nat!) :D
&&YESYES .
I HOST, a SK1 BBQ & CAMPING at Pasir Ris Park :D
Trees&Nat say cann one x: .
TELL ME THE DATES YOU ARE FREE KAY .
& NAT , I dont care :D . ! I Winnnnnn, Year end Cell outing :D !

iloveSK1.
&ZOE, I thank God Alot ^^

Thank you .

2009-08-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

Thank You,

For all your wishes & everything,
You guys mean the world to me.
Without you people, I really wonder.
Don't shred your tear for me, Im still here.

Firstly before I reply my tags -
I want to thank Clickclick alot, For that picture about. (: .
For trying their best to copy my handwritting, though it's really deegusting, I don't mind. &I wonder, why you people still those photos, I find them really ugly somehow. Haha, Imissedyou guys alot like tons . & Love you guys to bits. ♥
Though it's only like, hardly anyone knows about what's going on, Guessing about the 2years. Or maybe some even found out. Two I guess. Idks, But Click, Thanks. (: .

Agnes
Thankyou, & I will, Or rather I'm alright now (:

Amiie
Nothing, Really. & If I say Im alright, It's a lie. But Im alright now. (: Thankyou for the Idea of the photoochap.

Hannah
Thanks alot, ♥. & Yeahh, God Loves me. You & SK1 loves me too. That I know. (: . Haha, Im alright already ladyy. Thanks for the concern (: .

D: Zoe
Bestfriend, You donthave to know what to do, Just stay normal & be alwayys there. I want nothing to change, and that will be my lastwish for everyone who knows what's going on. I'm really alright. I dont want people to treat me different again. And I know it's a little hard for you to know about that. But Thanks alot, You really made me Smile. (: .

Charlene
Hi, Imagine how would my parents feel. Righhts, &Yeapps. Im fine already. Thankyous. I didn't curse myself. Okay. (: . I missedyou & I loveyou too .

May
Nothing, Thankyou uhs. I love you tons. ♥

Zoe
Surrender everything to God. Yeahh, I will try.

Sheryl.D
After you knowing about this, Making you change around. I'm kinda Glad this is happening somehow, for someone I really love alot, to change around cause of me having this sudden thing. (: . Maybe another onelastwish of mine is also for you, to never ever go back there. Cause no matter where I am. I'm always by your side, Deep in your heart, everyone will remember me, I know that for sure. &Everyone includes you too. Obviously I'm going to survive. Surgery or Not. &That's of course a No, If I go there, I wouldn't be talking to you already. Dearie, Trust me that everything will be fine. (: . For the first time, I saw you crying so badly infront of my eyes. &Because of me. I already wokeup, Maybe it's time for others to wake up, To accept the truth, cause it's facts. & If you die infront of my eyes, Whyy would you do that. Cause If I die, I wouldn't be able to see you die already, and we wouldn't end up in the same place, Hell&Heaven, It's up and down my dear.

&Felicia
Suddenly, we became so close to each other, After that day. Haha, I never knew you would be this great untill I really knew your heart. You will sooner or later find out what's going on. Even if I keep my mouth shut, You will find out one, & Thats Comfirm. You all started to steal my "Allforone&Oneforall" Line ehs!

Sarahhhh
Shutup, How did you find my blog ?

NickyyyyyyyyyyTXY
Iknow you are. The whole Clique is, Why won't you. I Know I used to treat you like a sparetire, & im really sorry about that, Nickyy, You have never failed to know I was sad. You were like, always there to call me even If I didn't tell you I wasn't sad. Nickyy I'm really Glad to have you as a BloodyPartner during G.B in Clique times. Loveyou babe, &Im sorry I didn't tell you that earlier .

DEPHANIE
Not every answer has a Why in it. Cause maybe it's time everyone learns how to let go of something either precious or unprecious to them .

Allysa
100x worst than what I'm facing now. Maybe to me it's only 2x worst, So I wonder. Really. Allysa Im alright my dear. (: . Thankyou for that Cake (: .

Doggy
Uhm, You sure? Cause I thought you forgotten about me .

Pamela
Yeahh, I will tell you (: . Or rather, I told you. Haha

Jayy
Basically, Even If I don't tell the wholewideworld, or even the clique, I know they are always behind me, Meet up with me after my CTs With Kelvin for a Click event. I have something to annouce though. (: . Imissedyou . Shyyts, But your prelims. :// .

Latte-
Haha, I believe you hor, Cause You survived. (:

Carissa
Uhm, Singaporean style your head, It isn't called kiasu, I wanted to wish Phil instead of singapore first kay, That's why it's 12midnight. Hehhs, Yeaps I will recover soon. I think. Praypraypray bahs! We are all in this together, Ehs, Correction* You are all behind me together with me in this. Rights ? :D .

Hilary
Tell you over the click event coming up. (: But promise me you won't breakdown, Cause I find you rather scary when you do that!

Joyy
Uhhem. Bimboness -.-. Rights! I missed you. Haha. I thought you hate my bimboness alot! x: . Stupid small alienn :D .

Apple
CHOPP! not here!

TingTing.
Ahh? & I Okay lahh, My headache's only a keller, if you're referring to headaches ! :D

Hazel
Yeahh, Money or no money, A) Cause my Clique's Rich. Want money also can borrow, Im rich, I can use money whenever I want. (Bhbs) Ohwells. But to me, Money isn't important. I can throw like thousands dollar on people. -.- I dont get why people like money so much, isit cause they think Money can get them everything? Ohwells. Fake it, Smile. I will try. (: But I'm happy now, From how I met you guys just now. Making me laugh ^^ . Don't push your luck too much Ehs! Hehs, Loveyoulosd lahh Hazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzel! & To me, suddenly. 2years can be pretty fast though ): . I'm scareddd kay! Not really.

With DA-Mates, Clickclick, KelvinZoeSherylJayy & SengkangOne. Iwill strive because of you all. Fight all the way. Relaxx&Don't cry kay, Even if you're under this group but don't know what's happening. I know you will still be there for me one. :D. I love you guys Plenty! ♥

Head very pain.

2009-08-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

Head very pain! ): .

Headachee.
Post later // .

Singapore -

2009-08-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

Yeappps !

Happy 44th Birthday Singapore! ♥

&

Happy 15th Birthday Lovely Phil! ♥

^^ . Happy 44th Birthday to Singapore,
Though I don't really like Singaporee. Haha But I will wish Her a Happy Birthday, or Isit a Him? :D . HEHZXZX .
(Look, My face has a Flag, I support Singapore, Somehow HAHA) .

^^. Happy 15th Birthday to my lovelyy Phil!
Yeahhzx, :D Thankyou for being there for me, tolerating with my nosence, my childish acts and those stupid "cute" things you say about me :D . Hahaha, iloveyou manymany, alot evenn. Hehhs :D. You have been a real stuupid lovely kwute rubbishdump there for me, to throw my every temper at you & everything :D .
I really owe you alot, & I even wonder. How can I repayy you? Thankyouzx for being one of those bestest. & Sorry about the phone bill kay!
Ling still Loves You, Though I go pissed off and whatsoever upsanddown we have, Im still here kay, Even If im not, I will try to be :D .
lubbbbbbbx loveyouuuuuuuu . ♥

I dont need your hand anymore.

2009-08-07T19:06:00.000+08:00

I dont want any form of help, &it's final,

Even if I was about to die, Who would care.
Even if Doctor said I had 3Months more to live.
Who would care ?
Friends? Maybe? Family? Will they?
I hide that one biggest secret,
Don't love me too much, Cause when you do so,
You would hurt a million.

Easier said than done.

Maybe, If I had cancer, or some random disease . Who would care? If I told you , I only have 2more years to live. what would your reaction be? I really wonder.
It's still stirring up in my heart, past,present& wondering about the future. But whyy. Must life hurt 20x more than a norman human being hurt? Hello? Isn't this unfair? I can be rebelious, I can be bitchy & I can be all that stupid things that people don't like nor people accept. But is this called Revenge? But it's my problemm. Im reblious&bitchy at times, But why it doesn't concern you. What for you people make life so hard for me?
You don't even get what's inside me, Nor do I. I hardly even know myself. I know I became a stupid #$%^&&* Ahlian in someof your eyes, yet I don't think I am. I hate it when people judge me, So what if I have a very broken family? a verystupid life? You don't have to judge, and you dont even hold the power to do so (tds).
I want life to go my way, but I can't. No matter how hard I try to give in for someone to lead my life for me, it's impossible ( try to get the line here ) . Sorry if you don't understand .
I'm pissed with life & I'm glad i'm going to die soon. Life Sucks. That's official .
Speaking of Future, let me tell you this. I dont want to get married, give birth & live. The worst thing in life is to Sin.
I know I sinned alot, but must God treat me like that? It's the past, I changed. I know what I did wrong, I stopped what I did. So what, When I believe in Him back, When I try to get back on track with him, Life gets even harder? Is this even Life? I don't even think so.
Life is Hell. (Im sorry people who are reading this) . But I mean it.
If you explain to me Hell is so Cruel. I think Hell is simply like Life. In my life, It is. Maybe in your eyes, Life maybe the happiest thing ever. God created you, & You live for him. HIIIIIII? I'm breathing for him cause he created me, I thanked him for giving me this chance to live up and breath, But you know what. I DONT LIKE IT .
I feel like im going to die, really, But maybe im already. I am. Before dying on the bed just closing your eyes. I might as well just walk pass a car and off I go, hell or heaven . I don't care. Maybe I do. But Life's hard. I hate itttt.
Everyone talk(s) and not listen. People think they are right all the time, Even I think im right all the time too, I give up in that kay, Thinking im right all the time, Cause I know I am not . I used to think I was so oh so great, having money that could buy anything and everything i wanted. NO . It's so not. To people out there, who thinks money can really buy anything. Let me tell you something, IT ISNT RIGHT . I can throw a thousand dollars at you, I Dont even want money atthis point of time. All I want is just love, happiness ? Just a little ? I can fake up a smile every single day, I can put up a mask every every day. But you know how tiring is it? Can't I just let everything go? 5minutes of sparing me, 5Minutes of your shoulder, is that impossible to get ?
Whyy's life like that.

Explain to me then .

If Life's like that,
What's Hell .
&
Why is God making life so hard, when he knows Im trying so hard to get back with Him?

I want to Cry.

2009-08-03T19:28:00.000+08:00

Lend me your shoulders, Just for 5 Minutes.

Cause Everyone's Missing,
Nothing Goes right,
I Lost many people,
I wish you were here,
Right now.

Everyone needs someone there, but why do I keep getting the feeling, Suddenly no one's there for me? People might claim that I have thousands of Friends, Maybe I agree so, But I wonder, are they there for me? I want to spill my heartout, but I simply don't know how. Something is stirring around my heart, Wanting me to spill everything out, but I can't. Every Lie to be erased, Every Tear to be the last, & Every truth to be said. I can't. I really can't. Today, All a sudden, everything flashedback, All those nightmares, and slowly, they get more frequent. I don't like it, I hate that feeling, it's causing me to trumble, to fear again, I claimed that, I don't want to drip another tear anymore, But I fail at doing that, Every time something happenes, I never fail to fall a tear down. I'm waiting for that day, that my tears dry up, for myself to not cry anymore.
I wonder, Why am I always not happy? Why do I bottle up everything? Why do I lie every question about happiness? Was I ever happy? My heart can't stop thinking of you, Dreaming about you. I had a dream lastnight, That I lost, Completely everything. I woke up, shivering with fear, thinking that, I have nothing left, Everything have been gone. Or maybe, that day might even come. I dreamt, I was seperated from everyone that I loved, and cared for. I was lock with complete Darkness. Am I supposed to surrender everything in Life?

Lend me your shoulder, for Just 5minutes, But I don't know how.
I don't want to cry, yet I only want 5minutes from your life.
I felt like I wasing dragging you down, Yet I still feel the same.
I don't wish that. Idontknwos.
Igiveup.

/Edited.

I want to scream
I want to shout
I want to kill
I want to die .

Why am i so broken? Tell me?
I hate life, I truly hate it, Why is my week going so badly?
Why is things turning upside down all a sudden?
Why are tears flowing like never ending.
5minutes, Only 5minutes.
Spare me.

FOP !

2009-08-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

FOP ! ilove SK1 !

Obviously I love SK1 {: .
Went out to Parkway with Yan & her mumy & Joy :D ! Send Faith for Tuition first. Then went to have Lunch, her mumy Treat (Thankkkkyouzx Aunty!). Then, walkwalk, bought a HomeEcons Lunchbox! :D, Wanted to buy a Pencilcase with Yan, But sadly Don't have ): . So walkwalkwalk, Supposed to meet Cell at Bedok Interchange, but Yan thought Kallang so Near, might as well meet at Kallang, Yan's mumy had asthma attack, & Couldn't stand the cold, so went out to walk while waiting for Faith to end her Tuition :D. Was super tired, and half couldn't breath, stupidzx. Then, tried finding to be Coffee, but don'thave, so Yan introduced me this shop, and went to buy milkteaa, Was much alive after that. Faith came out & her dady came too. Went back to PP. Walked around & went toilet, etc. Then went to the carpark @ 5.30 and off to Kallang :D. Waited for about 15minutes till the Cell came, and before that Charmaine came & Bimboed around with her, (she fail's at bimbo-ing), Yeaps! Saw many Riverlifers at KallangLeisurePark, Half asleep, so Yan went to buy donut, So, while she was eatting with Charmaine, I slept, Chao tired. Then HairMessy all over, suddenly Terese called, And spoiled my beautyyy sleep! So we met them at Kofu :D . After they bought back all their food, I wanted to drink Coffee to wake myself up, and the most stupid conversation with Hannah&Joy!

Me : I want drink coffee,
Hannah : Go buy lah! Behind you only .
Me : Huhh ? Got coffee ah there.
Hannah : Uh, Ya, of course :D
Me : Okay, Christilyn you go help me buy Espresso.
Joy : HUH ? Where got Espresso here. -.- .
Me : Got lah, Hannah say got Coffee what .
Hannah : They got Chinese type of Coffee.
Me : Huhhhs .
Me : okay lorh, Joy go help me buy coffee.
Joy : Oh, You want hot or cold ?
Me : HUH ? Got hot & cold ah ?
Hannah : ohmygosh, Winiline! You never drink Kopitiam Coffee before ah?
Me : huhhs o-o .

Okay, x: . Lazy to continue, So went to buy Espresso at Starbucks (Richkid!!) :D, Went down with yan cause she wasn't eatting dinner too :D . So walked down & back up, waited for them to finish eating, and off we went to IndoorStadium, Before that People went toilet&buy things, Etc. People came back then toook Peektures like crazy, wanted to take a groupfotoo, so Ally randomly went up to this guy and said "Eh! You from riverlife right? can help us take fotoo?" And, he wasn't from riverlife x: . So yeaps, had worship&sermon, etc. But seriously, I didn't understand a thing about the sermon, So im still wondering, was Bible should I get, NIV, NLT or KJV(?). Kay Idk what im talking here, Funfun, after FOP, Nat suggested to walk to the MRT. ): . But I didn't see any MRT okay! So wanted to cab, but she insisted to walk instead of taking a bus alsooo.
Walk till we got Lost, Cause they said they took bus to Kallang didn't passby KFC, So wanted to flag a cab, But sadly, No cab wanted to stop for me, Went abit high running here and there, cause Line hates getting lost ): . Thenthen! Suddenly Hearttttttchaoopain, Like as if gonna have heartattack kay! The feeling was like, something blocking my dammheart from pumping alrights! Then couldn't breath, struggling for Air rather! Kay, Finally found a busstop. then took 31 to Kallang MRT,
Seriously ah! SK1 is really nice kay, When I couldn't breath there, they gave a sit to me on the bus, & Etc. Alighted and walked to KallangMRT after that, 5dollars boombed to EZlink card! Was a little Dizzy, & Almost wanted to blackout(faint). Lazy to eleborate,
Took MRT, mama said Tamp MRT nearer for her to fetch, So Alighted at Tamp with Nat. Thankyous Nat for Accompanying me wait for my mama :D . Reached home around 12am? Supposed to meet Hazel lorh, But she was too tired, and I wasn't feeling that well. So didn't meet. Yupps, & That was how I ended my day, Reached Home, Phone with Pamela&Phil! {: .

Sunday Service!

Woke up at 10 today, Stupid Nat, Never wake me up, Luckyy had my stupid Kelvin to wake me up thinking that I was free in the morning for breakfast, Hangedup on his call cause i found him rather annoying! :D Sorry though. Hehs! Bathed&Changed, Etc. Rushed to Church cause I was almost late. Churched found it Quite fun :D. And Tell you uhs, I Find that Sermon indirectly talking about me ._. , So I don't likeeeeeeeeee. Anyways! End of service, around 1.30? Went for Lunch with Christilyn, Supposed to meet Yuhui&Yuntiann, But in the end they MIA-ed. So yeaps, Mama fetched and came home, Supposed to celebrate Sherylin's Belated 18, But didn't overslept cause I was super tired, Woke up at 7, had a terrible Soreeyeee. Bathed again, and wanted to fly back to sleep, Mumy came home with Dinner, so went down to eat then had medicine. End there. Foollllstop :D .

Okay 5 FastFacts.

I Hate going on Medication again! ): . So I'm going on oneweek Medication, and If it doesnt happen again, I'm going to stop.
I Love Phil lods !
I want to sleep, very badly .
I want to go shopping! ): But I have seriously, ALOT of clothes already!
I LOVE SK1 Alot, Like, More than anything else on earth, But they can't win how much iloveGod :D .

Irritated,

2009-07-31T23:49:00.000+08:00

Spill-Out,

Phil's Lost
Kelvin's Sick
Jayy's Missing
Richard's Angry
Darren's Sleeping
Joshua's Gone
& The rest of the people, are half way Gone.

I realised, I'm half way through losing everything so precious to me, Friends.
After I went back to Audition, I don't think I ever want to go back there again. I lost my confidents that we could even be friends, but maybe we can't anymore, Cause this time, the decision was made by me, after knowing that Jealousy would be this painful, I wouldn't want to know you anylonger, No wonder you treated me as stranger, Forgetting me gives you the best, Smile. At least, I see that girl there that can bring you happiness & more. Seeing her take over my place, I'm rather happy for her. Maybe it's time, I let everything go. Just a slit, for the scar to remain forever there, reminding me not to do it again. I never knew it would hurt this much, from the day I met you till now, Counting only 4days more, till it's considered TwoMonths. I kept thinking that, Life without you was Great&Awesome, but I realised it isn't. Cause a part of my heart, is still stuck towards you. It isn't called love anymore. Cause it's broken into three parts, You,Joshua&Him. I'm considered selfish in some sense, but I truly giveup on thinking about Joshua.

Joshua might been my best, the one that gave me everything I wanted, everything I thought that we could last. The one that was always was there for me Untill Sydney, untill that one Party. Within One day, You can break everything, Trust&Hopes, Dreams&Wishes, Everything gone within a day. I caused you to get into Jail, &you told me to wait for you, but I didn't. I spend my days at the Void & Even with some other guy, That i fallen for. I may do silly stupid asshole things. I may kill & kidnap a girl. I did really plenty lods of things, against the law, after you were gone. & I admit, I truly changed alot. It isn't me anymore, It's just another person, Void & all .
Leon gave me all happiness throughout that time, but It's all gone. He's the first, I tolerated so much with. and the first, that took me more then a day, to thought to breakup.
Kelvin&Jayy, are the first, who naturally became the bestest friends in the world.

Maybe from here, You would think, " Kelvin, Joshua, Jayy, Darren, Leon, JinHan, Sky, Max, Eli, Terrance, Jonathan & many others " have been my ex, and i might seem like some cowed up Slut to you, So let me say this.

I Don't ever Flirt,
You breakmy heart, I find love.
I make you Jealous, but I fall in love wit hthat person soon after.

Get it ?

&Seriously,
I don't gain any happiness like that anymore, I'm stupid, I'm iditioc, I'm pathetoc, &Every stupid thing that you can insult me with.
I Hate Myself.
For losing you people, when I promised not to leave.

You found your one True Love.

Last long with her,
Cause I know she means more

than me, i'm no longer, that

Most precious thing in your eyes anymore.

Friends or not now, I don't bother.

Cause, I know I can't bring myself to

Face you any longer.

Worst !

2009-07-31T19:27:00.000+08:00

Tired & Shopping & What so ever -

Totally Screwed,
Super Tired.
Cum Detentions. from all over the places
Not even school also can give detention.
What could be worst -.- !

1) I'm soaking tired, I'm realllllllly trying to stop using vulgarities, my head's a keller. 3Panadols & It's still killing me, Shucks. The whole day my stomach been burning hot too. &Yeapzx, I dk why. I'm feeling very very very tired today -.- . $%^&

2) I'm Sick of your sickening face, your sickening words. & Best of all, alll your crap lies come up to me again. I really wonder, Why can't i forget youu, Why can't I give up thinking of youu. My heart isn't with you anymore. But I simply can't forget you, Do me a favour. Please just disappear infront of my face, make me cry like a river till I get to forget you, Seriously. I can't & I know I don't even love you. It's pure irritating .

3) I'm stupid, for thinking that you actually do still treasure what we have. It's very stupid when I believe you, I can't lie to you, but is there a line saying that you can lie to me? No uhs. I'm 1000x Irritated&Sick of you. I'm pureeeeeeeee pissed, Yet I feel so torn inside. I considered you as a friend, but what you did to me, was simply like turning me straight upside down. Infront of my face, the best that anyone could do? Smart ehs you. Goodluck to the future, & Good luck to me too. I Missed those friendship that we used to have, those bloody sickening dayz that we used to keep. I really wonder, Are friendship real too?

4) I'm Pathetic, Just like what Ray always say "Pathetic Snow" . I'm pathetic, as a friend& a daughter & a simbling & somehow a girlfriend. Yeapzx, I fail people no matter what, Diedie I never fail to not fail them. *ChocolateFudge* I really buayyyyyytahanzx already kay! Who on earth said that I started those stupid bitchy & childish fights -.- , i can be bitchy and stepbimbo and failure and stupid and idiotic at times, and childish too, but for that, I didn't do it. & STOP SAYING I KILLED HER. IF I REALLY DID, WHY AREN'T THE POLICE HERE. I can say, I'm a stupid idiot, I'm a pathetic friend, I'm a bitchy girlfriend, but you know what, At least I Know I play it out, but inside I'm not alrights.

5) I'm about to dropdown, Just like before, It's hard to stand up straight, especially falling a million and ten times, I wanted to give up, & Almost gave up . I really don't want to fall, but No matter how hard I try to standupstraight and walk, I want to know why, I keep falling like crapz. House is like shyt, School's like jail. -.- . I feel so wanted everywhere but, Wanted by stupid people that I dont even want to get along with . Wths .

6) I'm in love with my girlfriends, & Zoeyan most! Obviously .

Kay, School was pernormal!
Except late for school again, Spot check all the way, -Smiles- Didn't get caught for anything, Chiozxz! Escaped from Amudaaa, &Went up to do Q&A(?) Survey, Kay done & went for lesson. After that Had Chemistry Pratical, Tell you ah! Super cool lorhs :D . I'm super inlove with playing with Chemicals! -Grins- I Made my Chemical mixed with Idks what, Pink! :D &Yesyes, I made it hott toooo :D . Sexyyyyyy manzxzx. kay, After that Had break & Live2 , then Had Hairdressing, Tell you, It's gross this time. But I'm starting to overcome my tooooot fear, Or rather Yeapzx, Diedie must face it rightz, 26 session! 21 more to go :D ! I Know I can survive, somehow, Had English test, & CCA, and Detention somehow :D .

Skipped Dance, & came home with Yan (: . Dady fetched, Meeting Kelvin at 8 later ! :D . Okayokay, Talking to Rachel Currently ^^ .
I Miss Charmaine & Romance many, Plaaaaaaaak ): .

And lastly , I so love this people :D
Hazel, Apple, Mocha, Latte, Angie, Agnes, Stephanie, Cherlin, Amiie, Mayy, Angel, Bella, Candy, Celine, Serine, Felicia, Denise, Dephanie, Hilary, Huiying, Nicky, Valerie, Twinkle, TingTing, Mabel, Fiona, Krystal, Kelvin, Jayy, Zoe, Sheryl. Carissa, Carrine, Lucifer, Richard, Benedict. Natalie, Terese, Hannah, Joy, Faith, Sarah, Ally, Clara, Christilyn, Charmaine, MaeAnn, Kymberly, Evan &SiewWen,

Meant not to be Bias, So for different Groups :D
I Think all of the names are hereeeeeeeeeee,
& All those listed, Are really the greatawesome.
No vulgarities right ? !

Eat Eat & Eat.

2009-07-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

Eat Eat & Eat

Stupid Food,
Stupid Drinks,
Stupid Health.

Okay ): . I Realised for the week, I Only skipped Monday's Lunch, Tuesday's Dinner, & Wednesday's lunch. Like wdhs, I'm eatting like way lods this week ): Or rather, my stomach has the hammer hitting me type of feeling now. Cows! ): . I hate it, lodlodlods, okay, I can control myself not to eat, but dumbass gastric acts up, & that's very irritating. ):
I even learned how to cook Mushroom Soup today? Like ohmymamama's cows! ): . I can't believe I'm actually working in the ktichennnnn, Oh by the way :D. Look, At least I know how to cook RICE & mushroom soup now lorhs :D .

Today school was the same, felt pretty weird, Kelvin's having Detention, So didn't really find me, he went home & boom he has fever. ): . Get well sooon lovely! &Peopleeeeeeee, ): Kelvin is my bestfriend. NOT my boyfriend, kays? Cause I started reading some assh0le's blog, and it clearly stated there " Woahh, I didn't know Winiline & Kelvin were together, I wonder when worzxzx " . -.- ! When I saw this I was like, Cows ? Whiich of my blog post said we were even together, I know I fail at loving people, so i won't be with anyone for the momment alrights! &YEAPZXZX, Im trying to control that alrights ): .

Ahhcows,
By the way, let me tell you this.
I fail at being people's friends, & That's irritating. ): I Hate myself for that, I feel like chopping my self cause I neglect so many people in life, bloodyfriendships! I can't believe NewComesOldGoes. Winiline's stupid alrights. Im perfectly and really sorry that i have been rather neglecting lods of you. ): . If you don't forgive me it's fine & i won't force you to do so, cause it's me doing the wrong thing. Ahs ! I Hate LingLingLing&Lineeeeeeeeeeeee. Bhhhhhhh & bthhhhhhhhs ,

By the way :D .
Tomorrow English Test again ,
Have tuh hand up 6 Letters of Excuse.
Bring Testtubes, Dettol, Facialwash, & Shower form & shampoo &Toothpaste !

Today had,
HomeEcons Test wdhds ): .
I flunk the wholee thing!
hateitlodzzzzzz.

I have to reply LY's letter ): . But i'm very lazy to writte, so I shall type it out soon ^^ . Kay Off to go out, Buhyes people.

I WILL Try mybest to go school tomorrow :D . Ohweells MRSTAN ): .

Try,

2009-07-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

SuperSuperTOOOOOOOTpissed!

I'm gonna try,
Not to use any Vulgarities,
&That mainly means CEE BEE EFF .
& All those things .

Stupid fellow, Change your blog URL atleast, It's making me eeeked out. Really. I hate your tagboard soo much, &It really reminds me of those stupid times wehad, I really hate hate hate 1000x you alot, I want you back as a friend, but you keep pushing me aside, So I shall say this, If you really want to let the friendship go, Bye off to you.

&Yeshh, Linee can't stand people's deezgusting typing on their blogs or whatsoever. ): . I hate it, screwit! ): .
Okay I'm gonna try not to vent out anger like that anymore :D !

Spend my day sleeping :D !
Was chao the tired, Slept during Englishh Test & During Assembly, and in the bus andand, :D For the first time, all three time sleeping, I dreamt kay! Alot stupid things lahzxzx . & I Really feel sick ): . Wthhs. $%^&

Okayy,
With to school, Slept. Bused to Yan's, walked to WS. Met Kelvin ^^ &Apple andand Hazel! Lazy to eleborate, mama picked me up :D, went home talked to Phil & Slept, Kelvin has detention tomorrow):. But he promised to pick me up from school on friday! *Yayy* ♥, Okay being stupid here :D .

I shall go tuh bed, After I talk finish to Phil & Yuhui .

Bythe way,

Anti Audition Club ): .
Founder : Zoe Yan Min .
Ahhhhhhhh, Kell me!

LINE HEARTS MRS TAN !

2009-07-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

LINE HEARTS MRS TAN !

I wasn't feeling well yesterday, So didn't really had a EmCe to cover me ): . Then my oral totally slipped of my mind kays, So like yeaps, I wrote a letter to MrsTan & I thought I couldn't take my Oral again, & 20% Of EOY Fly away like that! Was super down today, but after recieving a call from MrsTan while waiting for Yan to finish her Math Paper, She told me " You can take the Oral " . OHMYCOWSONTHOSEGRASSSSSSS, I was freaking the happy, But you know what, Under ONE condition lorhs, ): . & It's

You have to go school Regularly.
I can't believe I Promised her that, But I willlllllll (IWILL) Try my best :D. To go to school EVERYSINGLEDAY! Unless I'm really the chaothesuper the sick. Haha :D . Like Yesterday, Ohwellz! But when she told me about that bloody Counseling, I was super the $%^&#( mad with her :/ . But ohwellz, I shall tell her that, I WILL OVERCOME MY OWN FEAR ^^ . &Spend that one hour with Yan insteaddddzxz. haha, Ohwells, there goes my Dolls. ):

Today afterschool, waited for Yan to finish her math paper & saw Evan andand told her about the super lovely News alrights! Then AlotAlot of things happened&Crazy-ed around with her, Dont have to eleborate rights :D . After school, Headed to WS with Yan, Took bus 21 back. &Met Kelvin at the playground, Super sadly that he caught my flu&cough, Yet he was super nice to meet me cause it was our SomethingSomething Anniversary ^^ . Yet Idk what is that. HAHA, He claimed was The 8{?} Month anniversary of me Dumping/BreakingUp! :D . He's awesomelyyyyyyyyy Coool nehs! So walkedwalked, He wanted to go Tampines Mall, But I was rather lazy, &Very tired, So He send me home, &It's officially hard to say goodbye to him everything I want to go home ): . (I So hate Goodbyes). Home & Called Phil :D . Chatted alittle & he went to bath, Then he called me back, after mama came home we hanged (: .

Currently talking to Sheryl on the phone, & She's half done toooo ♥. I lovelovelove x10000 my hardcore super ultraa Girlfriend :D ! &YEAPZX, I'm half engaged to Sheryl& Half engaged to Kelvin. ohwellz, Kelllerz. By the way, Sheryl's Super Kwute I tell you. :D I'm so goign to sell her off soon, So up to date, Her Fotooo will be up on my blog pretty soon! Photobucket&Blogger uploader are pretty screwed currently, So Yeapzxz. &Yeahhhhhhs, we both are fine already :D . (Thanks ALOT Coco!)

& Please ahs ): . People Leave me alone at 11pm EVERYNIGHT can ? :D . Cause Linee's pretty busy at that time! Like yeappppps. So Yeah, I'm leaving my 11pm EMPTY, Cause I have to do something Much more important than Talking to you people! &That Clearly stands for everyone! AND, No calling of Housephonees tooo, Please ? ): .

& Comee, I show you this stranger conversation,

Kelvin : Aunty, One Scoop of icecream.
Aunty : Oh Okay. Buying for you girlfriend arh?
Kelvin : Uh, No, my friend .
Aunty : Aiyo, Why your like to play hideandseek, girlfriend means girlfriend la, no need shy one.
Kelvin : hahaha, If you say girlfriend that girlfriend lo .
Aunty : You both look so PerfectMatch.
Kelvin : Thankyou Thankyou, How much arh ?
Aunty : Free lah Free lah, I Treat you both eat ^^
Kelvin : Haha Thanks .
Winiline : Smiles . :D

HAHAH, The aunty is kwuteez rights :D . I tell you ah, It's super sweet & It's not the first time people thought me and him together already, 10000x people thought so too ): . Stupid, Im with an Oldguy, WDHS ! ): . ( HAHHA, Admit it Kelvin! You're old ^^ ) Yeapyeaps .

&Someeeeone, Pray for my back leys ): . It's a keller & my stuupid freaking bitten hand! ): . PleasePlease! It's both a keller .
& YES. LINE LOVES GOD MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE :D

TagReply-s.

OhmyCows, ): .
Why you all spam my blog!
& Audition :D . OkayLahh, I so Inactive alr!

Amiie
What stop shooing my dad! ): . I hate him till the fish ball drops!
& I can touch Touch :D, Who say I can't HAHA, Touch also Isn't yours ^^ . It will be mine eventually! & I SAY MINE :D .

Denysewinniefredaw<3
HAHA THANKS :D

Carissa
I Will! DA is my life ! :D

Sarahhhhhhhh
Un-Dearest Cousin! How on earth did you find my blog, & Where on earth did I say I thank you, dumbdumb :D .

Angiee
Ahemms, ^^ I'm not on Heartshape boof yet you know! Hehs, Soon lah Soon! hehhs, Heard you are already in :D . Congrats Congrats ^^, Sexaye arh! Next next Friday On hor! :D

Kayla.Y
HIHIHIHI NUER :D

Hilary
I Help you Sue O Levels :D !!

&Felicia
You dare, I slap you & disown you then you know :D . Dumbass Cia! Dont Xoxo :D . Cause I don't like you still, & Birthday coming, NEXTYEAR -Grins-! NO DOLLS HOR .

Latte-
You shhh & keepquiet lahhs Sexyy catwalk Pro ! ): .

D: ZOE
Shh, Not disappointment, You pro Spammer :D . Okay I shall SHALL Try to quit alrights ! Try first hor :D & 2Years, Not disappointment, Im Improving alrights :D .^^ & Cant dont talk, Cause You'll always end up talking to me. HEH , Yuhui wants to know you leh! She's Somewhat like you ): AntiAhlian type. HAHAHAHA & Anti CHAO ANTI against audition! :D . & Dont spammmm luhhs x: . Pro spammmer, & YEAPS. Dancing is my fav passion!

YunTiann
OBVIOUSLY YES ! ♥

Richard
Who say I aunty, You stupid Uncle, yeaps you shld wait fer me to go back, Seeya this Thursday ! heartheartss :D

YuHui
Zoe Obviously Pro Spammer lorh :D . & Of course hophop around singapore, You siao arh :D. I Got legs but ddefinatly will be tired rights! Stupid pigggggggggggggg :D . You dare wait, ^^ I Tell my securityguard chase you away. HAHAHA .

Pamela
YESYES OKAY ! :D YOU DONT CRY HOR .

DEPHANIE
Shh, Dont make friends with Kym&Zoe. They both super super Bimbo one :D . & Fierce, HAHAHA. You super lame shyytzxz Loser fella ^^ . But I still love you hor, Dont Same me You so different. HEHS ! :D

Hannah
*Yayy* FOP Ftw. ♥ ^^ .

Kym
SHHHH, Another pro spammer, OBVIOUSLY I going tomorrow marh, You stupid asshole :D . HAHAHAHA. I Know you upload already! I'm not so slow okay. LOSER ! :D // . Better see you tomorrow !

Counting OneTwoThree.

2009-07-27T14:07:00.000+08:00

Still living,

Linee's Sick. & It's very irritating,

Fever&Flu&Soreee! Wdhhs . ): .

But it isn't so bad fever. So like uhm, Since there's Chem (ohshucks) Test tomorrow, I shall go tuh school for it. Ohweeeeellllz, Why when Yan's back. I'm Sick! ): Line's pure feddupishh !

&I shall learn from Yan :D .
What carry you throughout the week,
" Wanting Saturdays to Come " .
Okayyyy, I shall think like her more & Less vulgarities, YEAPZXZ :D.

Mama was rather weird lastnight, ): . She brought me me to Shop, &She spend nearly 200dollar on me, -Grins- , But I really wonder, why is she getting so Random&Sudden suddenlyyyyy ): .
Sorrys, but idk what on earth im typing here thanks to my headache!

Lie through me,

2009-07-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

Don't Lie to me anymore, Promise?

I feel super weird today, &It's this very weird super messed up feeling in the inside of me. I had the urge to do many many things, Play, Sleep, Eat & QuietTime. &first of all, I'm having terrible gastric, or what so ever, It really feels like Gastric, but I did eat, & Literally eat luhs. I ate dinner lastnight already ): though i had totally no appititeeee at all, &I ate today too? My stomach feels like puking teribly, puking blood luhs. I really hate hate hate x10 that feeling!
( My computer is a Stupid lagger ) .

See lah, I dk what tuh post already x-x .
& Yeaps.

I Won't be going out for the week!
All, ALL, plans Cancelled! By YoursTruly(: .
&For the week Monday-Sunday .
i won't be flying to anywhereee ^^
Except for,
Saturday Morning with Baichee, :D
&FOP With Cell on the Evening?
&Night out with Kelvin ^^ .
Sunday Emptyy, only filled till 4pm :D .

Today&today&today!

2009-07-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

Awesome, Awesome & Awesome

LineyMissYanny!
& Life is no fun without her!

Quick Update first ^^ .

Churched today, Mama fetched at 2Pm, Went tuh try doing Chem ): . But Cmi, Cause I didn't understand what Clara & Charmaine were talking about, ohwellz, I officially forgotten what Kym said. &Yesyes, There goes my Test Results!
Churchhed, Didn't go well, thanks to Somepeople, who bursted my mood.
&Before I continue, I want tuh say this.

I seem like a fxcking, non-caring exgirlf of yours,

and, I really wonder why, Why you can't let go of me.

Do I really mean that much to you? Really?

I never ever believed In patchbackk, No even once.

Cause PatchBack fer me, Doesn't even work out well.

If you accept me as a friend, You wouldn't go overboard.

But it seems like, you dont even want a friendship,

Only wanting a Relationship.

I told you Thousand & Ten times, Don't wait fer me,

It's only a waste of time, I dont want to be selffish anymore.

Telling you that I dontknow whether I will get back to you anymore.

After seeing so many girls really wanting you more than me.

I finally realised that, I rather give you to those girls, not by

toying &just throwing you to them, but I want you to

Love them more, Like You have her already, I don't give a damn,

whether you love her or norts, but you are already with her.

Why don't you just give her that happiness that she wants,

& Invest all your super stupid love on her .

Instead of waiting for me, Today was the greatest scare,

& I don't like, or infact, I really hate people pretending things.

I really thought you were gone, & I cried like shytz,

Untill I realised, You are just pretending you're not there.

But really, ask yourself, why on earth are you doing this to me?

If you continue to say you really do love me,

What for treat me like that, as a friend, i accept.

But don't you think it's going a little , too far ?

I'm sorry, for being a Non-Tx person.

But Friendship&Relationship, I treat them both very differently.

If you say, I changed, I Wil tell you now, I didn't .

Cause I only treat you as a friend, not a boyf .

Thats why You claimed I changed,

Tears fer me are worthless, are truly really worthless.

Blood fer me, are super stupid, Which person would actually kell themself

fer love, fer me. Okay Maybe not kell, suicide in better words.

Don't be so stupid, & I don't wish to say this, but from what you want .

& How my friends joke around with it, I want tuh say .

" What type of flowers do you want fer your funeral? "

Since death is so much nearer like how you say it .

If you hate life sooo much, why are you living it.

Wakeup, Im not the only girl out there.

& I'm so not the person who is destined for you.

Okay, I shall continue,

Cried during service, & didn't really listen, Regret alrights. Really regret. -.-, my whole mind was on my fone waiting fer that one sms, but realised, waste of time, for beliving it, so many friends passedaway already, I hate losing another. so like Yeapyeaps. After service, was much better though, cause Claraa cheeredmeup! {^^} . &People joked about lods of stupid things, diedie cann't be so stupid to believe in everything, rights? haha. So Went to Drag hannah HANNAH, to walk with me to DTE. Ohwellz// She's slow kay, So bought food, went back to church. Uhm, Had Cell & I tell you ahs, Super Scarya lrights ): . From what Nat said, Seperate Light&Darkness? The first reaction I had, was like, " Huhhhhhhhhhs " I felt freaking Scared alrights, Like, I don't want revival to come & everything in my mind, I want to run away from church and al that, but impossible to run, I run where comfirm People will catch me back & what for run, I want My God :D . But I'm afraid of him now ): . Yeapppppppxzx, Lazy tuh Eleborate, So Yeah . Bused back with Nat&Trees, (Tell you uhs, It's super weird when you take a bus with your leaders, & both of them somemore, alone in th bus). HAHA, But they are the most awesome leaders everrrrrrrr, I swear ^^ . Walked home, but then , there was a group of ahbengs, Stalking me somemore, So Yeahhs, Saw a cabbby, & cabbcabb ^^ . Wasted 3dollars. Stupid hor. Reached home , & tadahh!

&Yesyes, Liney is in love with blogshopping now.

Super Eyecatching alrights ): . Reallyyyyyy lorhs. &Blogshopping ALWAYS make me lose the mood from shopping in reality. HAHA. *By the way, My Hiccups are a keller. -.- , I didn't eat nor drink, suddenly im having a super badd heeeeeeeeecupppp -.- * // .

School,

2009-07-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

I feel like posting!

I went to School for the first time in the term on friday
& It's officially a screwed up day! (: .

Hi :D.
Yeappzxz, Be proud of me alrights ^^ At least i made the effort to go to school, yet I still ponned CCA. Ohwellz. Rushed to School, reached school at 7.37? Coool nehs, Woke up late x: . Cause still had to find where i kept my Journal thingy for English CTs, Yeapzxz. Then super moody in the morning & because I went up the bus at 6.50 Everything was scewed up alrights! ): . And Yeaps, my bag was super the heavyy, (Thanks arh Kym, for making me carry that costume!) Yeapyeaps ^^ . Then, Went to class, Had this RacialHarmony thingy first. Afterwards, Tempreture taking & went to change. HAHA, Very funneh lahh, I don't even know how to wear a stupid Perranakann{?} Costume alrights! So Kym helped me ^^ . Evan woree too! But she changed afterwards. Had Chem and I Understand Finally{?} how to Chem :D! SS, Kym lost her Gold____ at first, Cause she lend it tuh Evan and couldn't find in the end, but Took up the whole SocialStudys lesson to find it. HAHA(: . Tell you ah, It's the Second SS Lesson that I went to. Teeheez, (And Yeaps, I find MrTeo Nice :D). Took fotoos with Clique & manymany others & Teachers too ♥ (but not many though). Had break, then Live2, Before that CamWhored with Kym Evan SiewWen Regina & Carlyn in the toilet :D. (Kym you better upload quickquick alrightzxz)! Thhens, Live2 was all about RacialHarmony, Okayokay lah, First lesson with Miss/Mrs Heidia? :D . Then, Had HairDressing!.
I shall have a short&long&quick talkinga bout that hairdressing.
While waiting fer MrsTan, The instructors came, Cause I skipp all fridays marh, So don't really know how instructors look like, and Cliquee told me they were instructors, Carrying bigbig laggage bags{!}. So Skipped till MrsTan went in the class, Then went in, First thing I saw, (Shock of my Life), The Hair(Wigs) was only with head, So bodyless. &It's a Fxcking Doll. So I was fuucking Scared, & walked out of class. MrsTan Drag me back and yeapx, Scolded. Then I cried okayyy Pathetic, but So what, Im scared mar x: . I really dontlike lah, My phobia of Dolls&Clowns are fxcking big. -.-! I told MrsTan, Im not coming to school on ANY fridays anymore! Cause I dontwant to go fer hairdressing, Irritating & scary, ): . Linee's Scared for once kayz. Then while they were Demo-ing how to PermHair {-.-}, Went toilet, then LY Came. ): ,But I was still crying, & complained to her, Then awhile later, MrsTan came to the toilet, And fetch me back to class, *Embarressing*. Then I didn't want to go to class, So Evan&Kym came to try to bring me back x: . Clara walked pass, &Saw me crying. (Funneh lahhs). So went back in, Okay luhs, Just Hate the Doll's Face alot, &Im sitting right at the front, Super Scared lah, DOLL'S FACING ME. The instructor was nice enough to let me not doa nything since I was so fxcking Scared. Haha. Okay. Then Had English, Sad mrstan had tuh go fer Oral, kym&carlyn too. So Spend with Evan and told the teacher incharge (relief) that we went to find teacher, or whatever, instead we went outside to do our work, Wanted to find LY after we were done, but LY went tuh find us first ^^ . She helped me do my Eng, So yeapps , I was half asleep there complaining about HairDressing *Eww* . Then Yeapzxz, She remembered that she had Ong's English Lesson, so she rushed back to Class. then Evan&I Crawled back tuh class, x: . Funneh lah, So after we went back, gave some stupid excuse to leave class again, Haha. Went to GiftShop, bought MilkTea :D. Then bellrang, went up to class to change back to uniform, (Wanted go toilet lahhs) . But too bad Toilet washing, So Changed in class w/ Kym :D . Stupid lorh , I banged my head 5times while changing out. {-.-}. Irritating, Marilyn kept laughing at me (bully) ]: . Okay, then went down, Kym asked me to accompany her eat, & done went off to eat with her, but ate a little, and didnt want already. Called Phil, Then hanged, Then on the way to meet Stella' ,Called him again, ( chatchat ) . Off to Bugis with her later, & Dotdotdot, ♥ :D.
On the way back, Met Kelvin ^^, cause he smsed me & asked me to meet him at the nearby playground, took out pinafole & went tuh find him, He's uber sweet kay. Show you ah ,

OnPhone.
Kelvin : Turn around.
Line : Huhs?
Kelvin : Find me.
Line : I don't like hide and seek! ):
Kelvin : Fine. -Kupps-
SawHim.
&Before I said anything.
Kelvin : I want you to be happy, & let the sad memories go away.
Line : -stares-
Kelvin : Promise me, Cause Happiness is Love to me.
Line : -stares-
Kelvin : I Know you won't be mine ever back, but this is fer you.
Line : uhh .

I tell you ah , Super sweet kay ^^ . Haha. He's really very the nice lahhs! ♥ Thanks Kelvin! Fer making my day already. Hehhzx. & The this is fer you thingy, is something x: . that made me uber in love with it.

I'm Starting to find School fun, ♥.

Painting a Picture of You,

&Yes, I'm already half way through .
Cause my heart's no where to be found.
But you claimed it, inside with You.

Obviously, Yesyesyes ! :D .
Ishall start with the Say that, "Life's Like a box of Chocolate, Hot times it will melt, & Cold times it will freeze up!"
Cool&True!
I'm getting more more more & more into life alrights! :D. Hehhzxzx,

(Opps)
See lah! I forgot what i wanted to type ! ): .

Count.

2009-07-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

&I still count by Fingers.

Because I waited for you,
And I just realised,
I'm simply wasting my time.

Finished CIP Journal, &I can't believe I did a hmwk for once (: .
Before I start my Normal entitled related to title post, I shall post about the day first. Cause It's Kindaa screwed today.
^^ Today's the first time in the week I took a bus home. :D . Okay, -Lame- &Yeaps, Went School at 7.25pm, Early kayz. Yan didn't turn up, So I was pretty Much Sad ): . I find it like, I finally know how she feels when I don't come to school alrighhts. Now when she's gone, I feel uber the lonely, but there's Kym, Evan & SiewWen to brighten me upup though. &Yeaps, It's the first time in the week I stayed for a Full Day. :D, Besides Tuesday. Teeheez, as in stayed without Zoe lahhs . ): . Still wondering Should I go school tomorrow, but Yeapps, just go lah, Kym will burst me out if I don't go tuh school, 3++ Finish. COMFIRM, I will Pon my dam CCA.

(!!) &Yan, I truly Miss you lahs ! ): .

Today been extra weird, Yeaps, Met up with Agnes, talked my way through. She played high&low with me, but she knew I wasn't in the mood, So like her everyday thing, Using the one and only method to get my mood back. But yeaps, After Went off to find Jayy, mood changed. Big time. ): . Sat on the swing, & talktalked too. He treated me Icecream, &Swang high and low too. He wanted to go Crazy, but still . -Moodless- . I kept rolling eyeballs when I saw all my fxckked smses. So Jayy could tell I really wasn't into Jokes. So uhm, Sheryl came to find me talked awhile & she left for class. Jayy walked me back, but still the "wo bu xiang hui jiaa." I really don't feel like stepping back home anymore. Really. ): .
Then around evening, Met up with Kelvin too, same thing, but this one, Cried out a little cause he bullied me, & made fun of me, & made me cry lahs. I Know I'm not PMS-ing or whatever, but this feelings really different, Moodswings often, And idks lah, Lazy to eleborate. It's just an ultimate different climate change lorh, :/ .
&By the way, Jayy bought me a Super Sweet Pink Dress alrights, Haha, He knew I wanted that dress longlong ago, but Just didn't felt like buying it, yet I didn't tell him I like. ^^ Thanks alot Jayy. &That was part of how he made me Smile. Though the dressed burst his pocket *Not* He didn't bother.
&&Yesyes, People. STOP buying me Impact lahs! I know I like impact alot, but stop buying kays. & Yeaps I got back my fonee already. (: .
Tomorrow heading over to Mayy's place ^^. She's uber the kwutez kay. Haha.

&Really I don't like people waiting for me, Cause It's really hard cracking open my heart again, And. Like I said, I don't believe in Love any longer, So really, Stop it. Even Jayy's Trying to win my heart back, but he knows, me & him uberxxx impossible alrights. The person I want to wait for, might even change when he comes back, I want to wait, but I don't dare to wait, He asked me to wait fer him, but I Really wonder, why should I. It's another A year & more. Who can stand waiting really. Cause I really miss you alot.
I Know those previous Ex reading this, might think I toyed with your feelings, but No, Cause I wanted to get rid of him in my mind, Understand? Better still not -.- .
HAIZXZX, Line's really very sick&tired already. I Miss Life. ): .

&FastFact.
Stop waiting, Don't waste your time.
At most we can be friends and no one can forbit us.
Being your girlf, make me feel insecure alrights.
Cause I can't put the trust I want in you.
So, Im really Sorry.

I'm Pratically typing nosence here.
My mood just flew away again.
Bye Alienns,
hearthearts♥

2009-07-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

Quarreled With Dady -

I Really Swear, Burst another
Few more times, You won't even
Know me, & I wouldn't even bother to know you anylonger,
Trust me

I Hate Him, I really hatehahtehate -.- , fxcktarddzxz, I don't get what I want, don't you get it? You say you give love, Whhat love do you actually give, Material Lovee of course, You think money can buy anything in the world rights? Oh look again, YOU CANT BUY ME. Fuck you. -.- , I really bthhs alr, ihateithatehatehate.
Cumm, You said You dontwant to give me material love & want to give real love right? You think just taking away all the material thing that you gave me to prove that you really love me, really works? Really, Go think again. Cause it doesnt work at all. You are simply making me hate you fxcking bitz more.

&Thanks Cousinnnzx, Alot for cheering me up andand girlfs too.
I Have been Missing in action fer alot of DA lessons. ): Cause I dont have the mood to fly to town to DA though, Ahs . Ohwellzx, Richard Im really sorry lahhs >< . Carissa & Carine, YOu tell me got groupgroup i thhen go, if not I wont go there and see that damwit Gigi's face ^^ . &Yeappps, Girlfs wanna call fer an outing -Smiles-! Omgggg, Damm happy kayz ^^ / Theyy have been smsing & spamming smses of mine, Hehs. Budden, MY CTS ARE NEXTWEEK *I Think? * Like wdcs, I dont even know when are my CTs -.- . But I know it's on week Five I think :D . -Grins- .

Went School late, & Went off Early, Wasn't feeling well though, Others went home too. So Yeaps. & Im really very Sorry Kym, For leaving you alone in school like thhat x: . Bthhs ~ I really flu&cough was a keller kayz . Papa&Mama came tuh fetch me off for breakfast, & That was when I quarreled with Dad. Fxckfxck (Wo bu zai jia, ying wei wo li jia chu zou) Yeappzx. So Call my housefonee & im not home too alrights.

By the way ah ! My Fone got Confiscated. D: . Not a joke kay ): Fxcking Sad, So Im in a house, without a Handfonee. So I decided tuh go buy a prepaidcard. LOL . But Idk how tuh use . x: .

I Can't wait for Saturday to Come, Bigbig Wanting fer Saturday. Haha, 2Things happening on that day ^^ . YAYY me ! Teeheeeeez !

&Yeaps, My Charmaine & Rachel are chiobus, So I am / I will sell themm or im selling them now ^^ Kay! Charmaine isn't a Single x: So If her boyf knows, Kell me. HAHA. But SELLING RACHEL, She's for sell haha.

Oh, forgot, x: My Conversation with my girlfs on msn was CHAO Funneh. Really! They are uber kwutez, Sadly Can't post what they said here x: . Or else I would be Sho dead. HEHS ! Plus I got male readers huhhhhs ^^ .
By the way, I shall reply TAGTAGs !

Tags

Kelvin,
HAHA , Thankyou lah!

Nat
How tuh express myself? It's kindof hard, Plus if you read this post, I think your mind will go BOOM! ): . Cause this post i filled with Vulgarities thoughzx.

Pamela
Why ): . Dont ley, I really never Smoke luhs!

TingTing
So Not. HAHAHA I won't post the conver, But I feel like posting up the Irritating Ugly Fotoos ^^ . Teehees. TING ARH , Virtual Bimbo x: Bibbass, LOVEYOUZX ~

Carissa
HAHAHA, YOU SHH x: .

Latte
Cause the fotoo was too big ^^ So had to resize, but then, When Resized big again, So I Went to drag the corners "Resize" haha, But It looks dam screwed, Rights ? :D

Mayy
^^ , Not Kwute, I want tuh kell you. HAHA .

-Postanothertime, Buhyes. -

You can do whatever you want,

2009-07-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

You can do whatever you want,
but you can't bring me away again.

No matter what happens, nothing will bring me to fade away again.
Because what's mine, is rightfully mine.

Even if I got involved with that, & Police statement and whatever, I will make myself clear, that it wasn't my fault.
&ISwearr, whatever happens next will not be able to drag me far apart away again kays.

-You people don't even get the Story, so seriously, Stop pushing the blame. First Coco, & Now what, Me? Oh So you trying to say, I Killed that Daredevil beetch? Ohwellz, Which bloodyfxckedup eye did you see huhs? Really. If you people or whoever that started the rumour with " LingKilled one" . Maybe you will also have the Guts to come find me & admit tuh me that you did it, andand i really want a dam reason why on earth did you fxcking did that. -.- .

I had troubles with her, & Obviously I did have alot of fxckedup issues with her, but whhat. My problem? Your Problem? Really luhs. Even if we're both screwedup/fxckedup together, who gave you the rights to Judge me, You dont even hold to power of Judging.

-.-, Like Cows, Really.
& Enough with that, I already Said, Im off from the void, Really. I won't go back & ask them fer help or whatever shytz, Void & Me, Get the seperated line there, I Only claim Coco as a beetch friend. &Thats final . I Won't find people at the void, tuh help me kell people or whatever shyt alrights. I really really rather stick with people I trust can? Fxckkkkkzx .

I LOVELOVELOVE , My girlfs, My Clique, My Churchyys & My Boyfs. ^^ .
Boyfs as in group , buudden guys :D .
HEhhhs .

CONTINUE TMR . !

Happy Birthday, Bestfriend! <3 .

2009-07-21T17:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Yan.

:DBestfriend! You're officially 14th Today ^^ . Though today isn't such a great day that lods of things happened, You shoud still enjoy it rightright ? :D !

Hehs! LineLovesYan Alrights! :D (!!) .
It has been awesome having you as the greatest friend in the world that doesnt changes, You've been there always For me :D . So Really ThankyouThankyou! Linnney hearthearts Yan! Hehs :D

*Ps, Blogger & The uploading thingy abit screwed up . So like yeah. (ohwellz, Screw Photobucketnow)
LINEHEARTSYAN!

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OhShucks, Reading People's blog make me misses Romance alot ): .
I shoo want tuh be there kay!
IHEARTHEARTROMANCE ^^ .
Anyways ): . Budden I also can't leave my others behind for Romance righhts!
Shoo fxckedup! & YES, Im bloody hating my internet x100 alr ^^ .
Plus blogger is so screwed, Facebook I can't upload my bitch'es face ):
&&Yeaps, i Officially cant upload anything, Like wdcs ? !
I REALLY buaytahannnn nahs! ): .
IMissRomance, IMissHim, IMissYou, & Most of all, I MISS YAN ! ♥

TagsReply!

2009-07-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

TagsReplys (: .

Coco
What Guaikia face ): . Im really innocent. Haha. But at least I have stupid irritating weird crazy Memorise from you guys there right? ^^ . &Yeaps, I leave first, Sheryl CONSIDERED to leave rights? ( Sheryl if you see this, You better let go ) . Haha . :D .

Nat
Thankyou, Alot. &Yeahh, &Winilinee Loves Nat, Alotalot, And i really do mean it. :D .

Kayla
Hao bah ^^ . Hehhs, ♥Nuer. ( http://fadedlove-s.blogspot.com )

Amiie
Dont thank me. Thank God. (: . I should have followed me Plans today, to not cause trouble with those weird people, Ohwells. At least Im still alive right? :D . Haha. LINGLOVESMIIE :D . I changed, for the better. Be proud of me, Yeahs? ♥ heartheart you .

YunnTiann-

Long time you didn't tag, Ohwells! & Yeaps, Im okay already, If I want Sheryl back, I take the first step ^^. Loveyoubabe .

uknowme
Actually, I dontknow you, Sorry. & No You in th Us? Why cant it be, no us in the you -.-

Kelvin
Ilove your shoulder & im very sorry for wetting it like crazy. ): . ohwells. Kelvin, mybestfriend! Haha, You are really awesome ^^ .

Cherlin
Everything was, but now isn't. I finally opened my eyes, & see what I have been going through. Cherlinn, Im sorry i have neglected you for quite awhile, like having new people and dumping the old. ): . Imissthose shopping times with you. Heartheart you babe. I missyou lods/ ♥

Maine
Alrights ( http://i-loveyouus.blogspot.com )

Pamela
Nuhs, I wont anymore. :D. Thanks for being there for me, Escort me home tomorrow, You say one! ♥I Love you Alot Xiao Mei Mei ^^ .

Sheryl.D♥
IKnow you will, BestFriend obviously you been the best, Promise to change ? ): . I really miss the old you, I changed back already, Why cant you comeback! & Stop with those fxckxxx ^^ . You never changed in my heart either, or you did actually idks. HAHA . I Just missed you lods babeee ! ):

For Once,

2009-07-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

I Like Styling With You, ♥

Yeapps, I really do :D . Cause You bring me those stupid times & memorise ^^ .
obviously, I loveyou ALOT. Girlfs ! You have ben the best most UN ahlianish There for me . Hehs. You never fail to WAKEMEUP. everytime i needed you :D .
JAYY&KELVIN , You're my bestfriends, & never my boyf ever again :D . That is what make you so special♥ . Alrights im crapping here. ^^

WELL . I LOVE LOSD OF THINGS , POST ANOTHER TIME ,. BYE :D

Life, turned out Differently,

I'm Giving up VoidVoid, already.
But Coco Remains With Me, ♥

I Think, Yesterday Sermon was ratherr, Great? At first, I had FamilyDinner going on, But for the first time, I felt super desperate to go to Church, Ohwells. So Fought with Mama, & walked out of the house, Wearing Pink (Striking!) Off to Church. I felt pretty weird though. But I was okay with that.
& Guess what, I Found out, No matter how badly I sinned, &Thought the one that God won't forgive me most, Was not the biggest Sin, instead it was Not Paying Attention to Him, Yet I didn't even care about that at all, Untill I realised, How much God really meant to me yesterday, Thinking throughout.
If I was to stay in a Community, I stay there, & Not keep changing. So I firmly decided that, I rather Stay with my Girlyys at Church instead of Going to the Void, Cause I rather have true & close people with me, rather than going out at night, and go crazy with those people. But I will spend my lastoneweek if you guys at the void, But like spend fer less than an hour kay.

SkipSkipHoreery!

2009-07-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

Im really fxcking pissed alright,
Im no longer attached,
Can you people stop treating me like your cant believe it?
Simple Terms, I DONT believe in Love any more!
Stop fxcking telling me shyt craps kay.
& For people who claim to be my exboyfs.
Im sorry & thats it.
Heyys, Get it right,
I never NEVER ever got dumped. -.- !
Unless fer the fact which is " ehhs, dear i think we breakup & be friends better " While i tried calling you in th morning to tell you i want tuh breakup with you, Thanks for the * I never got dumped before *
-.-, Seriously.
If you want tuh be with me, Simple, Put everything you have, Into that fxckked relationship, & make sure it doesnt go hayywire. Cause I HATE boyfs that is over protactive, Not even allowed to talk to guys ? wdcs, Please lah. People who say they like me, Okay iKnow EVERYONE LIKES ME . You like but not love me, Get the differents? & For those who lovelovelove my money alot, go be my dog, I think you will earn muchh. wdhs .

I help you tuh conclude all this crappy shyytzx.
& Yes, I broke up .
I do Not believe in love, neither whatever " true Love" cause if there was such thing, Where is all those truelove. Really.
I fxcccccccck10x hate undonelove alot .
Finee, If you want tuh be with me.
Make sure you think it through .
Cause im a total bitch in everyone's eyes.
Save your craps, Cause my answer will be no .

And, Really ah.
Answer me this question.
When I breakup, Why cant i be friends with my ex ? Really lorh .
Me & kelvin & Jayy, Didn't we become Extreammly fxckking goodfriends ?
Obviously we did -.-,
So whhat, Why cant me and Leon be friends .
& For goodness sake .

IM NOT YOUR FXCKED UP DOG LAHH PEOPLE .
YOU DONT HAVE THE RIGHTS TO TELL ME WHO TO BE WITH RIGHT ?
I PMS LIKE A BITCH, AND I KNOW IT ALOT .
I CHOOSE TO BREAKUP, CAUSE YOU GO TELL ME WHY .
WHY WHEN IT'S ALWAYS I DUMP PEOPLE, & I GET HURT SO BADLY.
I CRY AT NIGHT SILENTLY, & I CANT EVEN GO TO BED.
I CHOOSE TO PATH & I WILL LEAD IT .
IF YOU HATE ME, FXCK OFF THEN . I RATHER BE LIKE THAT .
I HATE THE WORD OF LOVE.

CAUSE MY PARENTS CANT EVEN GIVE ME THAT LOVE.

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SkipSkipHorray

Sorrys, No Link to the Tittle again ^^ .

I Skipped School today, Due to oversleeping. & It's official for the term that, I haven't gone to any Friday classes since school started for term3 :D! & Yesssssss, I owe 5Excuse Letter, Hows? PrintPrint, Lazy tuh type out lah. I skipped more than 10days of school alr since Term3 Started &&Guess what! CommenTest coming nehhs. Plus, I Don't get Math In class so, Byebye Math Comfirm Screw my exams ^^ . The rest about tuh Fail too! Except Chem lo, At least I get what Joyce's Talking about( But She's Going to kill me as I didn't go for her Lessons ) .

&Early morning, Yan & Kym spammed my MissCall, Ask me go school, But couldn't be botherd to go school, (Ithink that's the reason they called). Yan wants me to accompany her to Ikea! So YES, I will! :D. So yeaps, Off to Ikea later, &&Maybe Void after thhat, or home first. Thhen Meet Kelvin?

&Nooo, Im not prepared to hear Kelvin's Nosence. ): . Please don't scream at me if that's your point, &KELVIN, Make sure what you talk about isn't link to the previous post alrights. Cause, I want no one to talk about that previous post, & I Seriously Mean No One.

&&, Im going out with Coco to find a Coffinn later! ^^- Coools right, Okay x: . I told her " when I die, you better tell my parents I only want a Pink Coffin " She waas likee, Uhhhs how . HAHAHA . Coco is awesomelykwute !

Okay, There's this person who called me just now, & this was our conversation alrights.
( I can tell that, that person is a BLACKKK! )
Me : Hello , ?
Him : Is this Myraiatic______ (whatever)
Me : Huhh? Whhat fxck you talking about.
Him : Is Myriatic_____ There?
Me : wrong number asshole .
Him : You dont lie to me,
Me : Fxck you lah, Wrong number lahh,
-Kupps-
5Minutes later, Callback.
Me : Hello, ?
Him : Why you hang up on me.
Me : Cause you called th fxcking wrong number.
Him : No , Please Myriatic__ Forgive me.
Me : Huhhs, Wrong number lahh babi.
Him : Please. I wont do it again Please please
Me : SHUD TH F UP , IT'S WRONG NUMBER
- KUPS -
Call back 1minute later .
Him : - Indian Lanauge _ zxcasdfsdanjfbahgoh.
Me : you Cheebai lah, nahhbei, ke yi bu yao call le mah.
Him : Huh ?
Me : you damm fxckedup lah, if you pranking my fone, then stop being a nusence here.
Him : Whhat - IndianLanguage - ,
Me : Stop calling, Or else i report to police.
HE KUPPED .
Call back , 10minutes later .
Him : Im SOrry Im Sorry,
Me : yeah whatever, stop calling .
Him : PLEASEEE I BEG YOU FORGIVE ME .
Me : I SAY I FORGIVE YOU FER WHAT , I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU
- Hangs up, & Rejects 4Calls Straight -

You know, I was literally wondering in my mind, Do I sound like His Mariyaa or dontknow what person, x: . Really funeh lahh. & it's the first time i Scolded a random stranger on th fonee like that. Haha. I had the mood to call the police though ^^ . I wonder if Someone call's Coco, How would she react x: . Ohwell, Budden, what on earthh he did to make his ______ so pissed lorh :D ! Kwute !

Anywayys! Im meeting up with Cherlin Tonight, (Before Void) She's another one who wants to see me. :/ . Ohwells, &&I heard girlf are treating me fer lunch on Sunday.. o-o . Seriously lorh , If everyone's reading that post & spending time with me, for the last they can, I will just. Laugh my head off. D: . Cause I said, You people are waasting your time only ! ): .

&Apple Told me about Joshua though, hais, Long way more. I somehow feel like I Miss Him alot all of a sudden? I hate him deep inside, for making that happen, People say forgive & forget, I can forgive budden I cant forget. I cant even accept the fact that all this fell inplace. Joshua, & Yeahh I Missed you too.
( Im finding myself softer & softer everyday ) . tianbiliangting(yeahwhatever, it's somename :D) .
I Cant wait for Sunday to come :D. No worrys, not sunday night! I Bet that night will come slowlyyyyyyyy. Im just waiting for Lunch with girlfs ^^ Havent seen most of them for quite awhile though, Carissa & Carrine & DA-Mates are jio-ing me After Lunch, So Im going tuh become Phat again! ): ! Dinner&Lunch Treat, Speaking of that, Dont think I got no breakfast treat, Jayy & Th other Gheyys are treating me fer Breakfast, So like here's Sunday Schdule?

7Am, Wakeup.
8Am, Find Jayy.
9Am, Meetup with the rest of th Gheys.
10Am, BreakfastTreat :/.
11Am, walkwalk&talktalk.
12Pm, They said got surprise worhhhzxzx ~
1Pm, They want bring me tuh vivo x: .
2Pm, They say bring me go shopshop @Town.
3Pm, Send me off tuh meet girlfls.
3.30pm, Meet Girlfs :D & have Lunch ): .
4Pm, comfirmm still having Lunch.
5Pm, Walkwalk, Shopshop,
6Pm, Still walking & shopping .
7Pm, Gheys & Girlfs Gathering, Got something for me kay !
8Pm, Say byebye.
8.30Pm, Meet DA-Mates (!!) .
9Pm, Dinner Treat. ):
10Pm, Walk around aimlessly.
11Pm, Say Goodbye !
12Am, Meet Latte Kopi'0 & Mocha!
1Am, Byebye ! :D
2Am, Find SexyChiobus First!
2.30Am, Byebye.
3Am, VoidVoid ! ♥ .
4Am, By that time msg everyone alr ^^ .
& Thats my day :D !

Ohwells :D .
End off here, Churchhhyyy tomorrow firstfirst.
I Love My Pretty Babes!

Can I ?

2009-07-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

Can I ?

Leave the world, without Regrets?
Slit off?
Cry my heartout?
Jump Off?

Easier said than done.

The world revolves, & it doesn't stop, neither does it stop for you, Not even for a minute. Why can't I just turnback time, & Get everything back straight, Why is life really Full of Mistakes? I'm Prepared to close my eyes, and not wake up the next day already.
For Love I sacrificed So Much, & I really mean alot, I know I used to be what people claimed, " Playgirl " Going around hookup with some random guy, & Gone afew days later. I stopped, After I ended off with Jayy. But when I went back finding Love, Everything went misplaced. Though I put in so much time&effort in them, I get back nothing, I Only find myself Loving the wrong thing/person. I never wanted Love to end off like that, When everyone promised me, It would last without mistakes, Where did that promise go to, Without Mistakes(?) There's nothing claimed to be without mistakes. I Gave people more than 4chances everytime, But the only thing is, They claim that I gave them only 1 or 2 chance & they gave me a thousand? Whatthecoewsdoingongrass.

I Close my eyes, & It comes back, It always does, &I start to hide, and pretend everything is alright still, But it isn't. I Get lost in the dark, I shiver in fear, And slowly, Tears fall. I Don't want to drip another tear down, I dont want to fall back on the floor, Yet it seems so hard to stand up. Really, I always have the mood to give up, & get everything ready to give up, But it seems so hard. It's simply just like letting something so precious to you, off your hands. Thats the point, I can't let go of my past, Everything bombed this year, & Everything Burst this month, but Why. Was all this planned? For me to let go everything at one go? But Why.

People Suffer with me, But I am Simply dragging them down only.
I want to dose myself off tonight, I really want to. Can I live till Monday? Can I cry all I want, And pretend every single thing is Really Okay? Its hard, It really is.
If I live all the way till Monday, Go Thank God. I Doze-d before, & I woke up eventually, 7, Why not Ten this time. Get off the world like that, Every Tear I drop, Is never worth it anymore.
But when I am officially Gone apart from th world, Guess who's Birthday it is, My DeathAnniversary & So many Lovely(s) Birthday. ♥.

Off your hands,

& There I go.

I'm not worth anything,

I'm really Sorry People who cares.

Dont Shread a Tear when I am gone,

Cause Im not worth your tears at all.

If you Claim me as a friend of yours,

Then Im deeply sorry.

I don't want to hurt anymore people.

I don't want to fail anymore people.

I find myself only half alive,

living in this world with my heart beating fast,

But deep inside, I find myself as cold as nothing else.

Leon,

2009-07-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

Im sorry

I hate breaking promises is one thing, & I dontwant to believe in love anylonger, really. It's hard for one to let go, But it's worth it to let go.
& Yeah, Dont wait for me, Cause im worthless to wait on.
Carry on with your life, & Especially with Grace, I know she doesnt like a Thirdparty & mostofall She hates me alot.
I thought we could last too, but it didnt work out, I thought love was real, but it's all untrue.

It's time you let me go, Because im not worth your time at all.
I dont claim myself stupid for falling in love with you, Cause I know I lovedyou, & now I still do,
but our relationship, simply can't continue. Either one will get hurt eventually, I know it isnt for you, Plus your birthday is round th corner, & One of your biggest wish, is me to be there. i'm Sorry. I really Am.
Don't keep asking me, what on earth Am I doing, But I know i made the right choice to leave you, though i'm hurting now, Eventually i have to stop crying, right? I don't deserve the love you give me, Cause I find myself like a fxcking girlfriend & yes, I fail as one. You can hate me, You can do whatever you want, But dont ever fall back for me. The hardest thing, Is to Forget you, is to hate you. Because I can't bring myself to do so.

Lose one, Get back 100 / Lose 1 Lose all / Gain One Lose Hundred.
But I dont really care anymore, Cause Even if my friends hate me for you, I didn't mind. But know i really know why they hated my so much, Cause they didn't want me to get hurt when I was with you.
Leon, You wasted your time on me, You wasted your days with me, &Especially, You wasted everything on me.

No one expected things to go out like that, Neither me.
After reading your blog's tagboard, & every single bloglink of those " babys " there. I felt like, if there was such thing as love in a relationship, why must you love so many & not invest on only One person. I thought it through, & My Decision Is Final No one can change my mind anymore. I don't want to go back, I dont want to cry all those nights alone anymore.

After yesterday, I got all those flashbacks back, Joshua&Me. You&Me. &those people that have really burst me, When I thought Love was everything, it isn't. I want to be Strong, I want to stay Strong, & I Must.

Thanks Coco, Carrine, Carissa, Gennieve, Amiie, May, Richard, Jayy, Kelvin, Cherlin, Lucifer, Allysa, Felicia, & many others, for trying th least to cheer me up.
( Gladys Jie, & Gavin JieFu, Thanks alot for LastNight )
( Pamela Mei & Phil, Everything will be Alright )

& For the least, Leon, It isn't Pamela's fault, I shall clear everything today, Cause she didn't make up the breakup.
I read your blog, & Th links, Everything felt like, you told me every exact thing same as how you told your other " Babys " . I felt stupid for giving in, & You're the first, I never scolded, never gave th coldshoulder neither to Shout at or Forcing you to break with them. You know I didn't like, & I agree with What Pamela or dontknow who said on their blog or tagboard, that, You knew i really dislike you to Hong, Yet you continue to do it, though my mouth was shut, not saying anything or giving any comments on the rest of your " babys " I was broken inside.

Im having Family&Friendship difficulty at the momment, & Yeah, everything changed all a sudden, Instead of being a bitch infront of you, I rather let you go.
I dont want to be anymore destroyed, I dontwant our relationship to continue, & i dontwant us to end of even worst, So i rather send you that message, Telling you not to call nor sms.

Im really Sorry,
I fail as being your Girlf.

PhotoSpam,

2009-07-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

FirstFirst,

HAPPY Belated BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE! (8th July)

HAPPY Belated BIRTHDAY CHERYL! (10th July)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENNIEVE HIE! (14 July)

HAPPY Advance BIRTHDAY LEON! (20th July)

HAPPY Advance BIRTHDAY ALLYSA! (20th July)

HAPPY Advance BIRTHDAY SARAH! (20th July)

HAPPY Advance BIRTHDAY SASA! (20th July)

HAPPY Advance BIRTHDAY ZOEYANYAN! (21th July)

There's many other people birthday also, But kindof forgotten the others, & I know 21st July still got another 3 birthday too ^^ . & 20th Still got also . I know i missed out alot of 10-30July still got alot lorh :D .

Celebration,
Celebrated Zoe's Birthday On Sunday,
Celebrated Gennieve's Birthday on Saturday Night,
Celebrated Cheryl's Birthday on Friday, ( Fat Fat ! )
^^ , Blew cake, So yeah ! haha .

Im gonna use Photobucket kay, Cause Blogger's PhotoUpload ISNT working at atl like wdcs ): .
Photoospasmm will be upup ! (: . On this post too kayz , Heh . Gennieve birthday got No fotoos ): . You lah(Points at Gennieve) !! .

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Hardcore pissed,

2009-07-10T10:34:00.000+08:00

You think you get to control my everything?

Please lah, You're just my Father, & You should be glad that I still call you " dad " . Who started the everything, It wasnt me, It was you. You always told me to " Learn from the elder " Fine, I LEARN FROM YOU. " Learn the smart & not the stupid " . Oh Blame yourself for having mumy to give birth to such a stupid daughter then. If you didn't want me, KEEP ME FOR WHAT. Like really Wdcs? .

I'm already fxckx enough pissed, & You're adding weight, Why cant you just be there to support people in whatever they do, must you drag them down? Whhats your fished up cow problem? I hate you, I really do. & I Swear, that the day that I promise myself I wont reconise you as my Father anymore is Coming. I dont care what it takes, You earn money for me right, & all that shyt, I dont want your money. I don't need you to support me for my life, & Most of all, I Dont need you to be there to Drag me Down. Neither to Insult me.

You can go out & claim that Im your daughter & everything, but I wont be soon. Trust me. Cause I don't have a dad like you. When everyone was laughing out there happily, & I was crying deepdown, where exactly was everyone.

But Winiline Cries wont be there anymore, Cause, I won't shred another tear, I won't be here, I would only be half alive in your eyes. I Would rather be cold, & Another person. Then staying here getting insulted by you Ever Single Day . Im fxcckkkkkx pissed.

SkippedSchool
It's an official again, I can't survive one week proper in school, That i swear i realised. Wdcs, Everynight Especially Thursdays > friday, It's my night now, I take control of it, (: . So that might be one of the reasons why I MIA from school every single Fridayyyyyyyyyyyzxzx . Ohwellzx. Thanks uh Beetch (: .

UpdateUpdate,

Morning woke up, 61 Messages Since 12AM . (: .
Bombed my night thanks to Coco for cheeeering me up :D . Or rather that . Hehs.
& No, Me and Sheryl still isn't on terms.
YAY for tonight :D :D . I can't wait cant cant cant. IloveCoco the manymany, & I love my voidyy for being there for me. By making me happy in a stupid way. But most of all I Love my best Boyf in th world!

IM STILL PISSED WITH M DAD.

FXCKXX MY MOOD ON POSTING LAH .

Went & Came Home,

2009-07-09T15:00:00.000+08:00

Went to School, & Flew out

Ohwellzxzx, Woke up today having my everday routine, *Everyday* . Went to was up, & Bathh, Before bathing Couldn't find my uniform, Wdcs , -.- . & Iwent screaming Like a Cow againn, " Whereee's my uniform , No uniform dont need go school lah " . Then bathed, Didn't change to uniform, but wanted to Void (: . So in the end, I found my uniform in, hanging on my door, (smart) . Then my maid went " Go schoo lah, got uniform here *Points* " So changed out again, & The best part is, I changed (Ironed uniform), Went to my bed wanted to lie down only, In the end fell asleep x;. Kor scolded me though, So Woke up, Washed my face again * Blur * . Then went down, Took milo & was having gastric, fishballz, Then couldn't find my wallet, (: . & Fone. So I Gave the i dont want to go sch without wallet & fonee excuse again, but maidd rushed up and take fer me, wdcs ! okay, Unlocked my fonee, 54 Sms ^^ . I really have Awesome friends alright, Hehhs. ( Went to school cause Zoe went :D ) . Reached school CHAO early today, Lastnight just wasn't my night, Couldn't sleep 101% . Saw Kym & *Waved* :D . Then went in to class, ( Woahh, So many people in class alr ) & It's official that, I HAVE A CRAZY CLASS :D. They didnt do homework(?) So copycopy, Hehhzx. :D . ( I was tired & having a headache ) *H1N1 Syptommms!!!!* . Okay chao wuliaos :D . Anyways, Zoe had a headache, & Kneww later something was going to happen, So, I think during HomeEcs, She went down to call her parents ( Didnt want to go home onee ), But that cheena teacher *psps forgot namee* Went to ask her mama come fetch her :D. So I was likeee - conversation,
Me : " EHS YANN , I also want go home " .
Yan : " -Give me the look- , You go say you very tired & got headache "
Me : " Yannnnnnny, x; . You support me going home ? HAHAA "
Yan : " Accompany me lah, "
Me : " Finee :D , - Went to counter, I want tuh go home x; "
Yan : " LaughLaughLaugh "
Counter lady : " What happen "
Me : " Orh , I very tired, want sleep & got headache & half half cough "
Counter lady : " Oh oakyokay, Anyone coming to fetch you ? "
Me : " YESYES, My daddy :D He's coming yaya "
Yan : " Laughs silently . "
Me : " Uh , Can hor "
Counter lady " CANCAN . "
Counter lady 2 " Why I alway see you go home one "
Me : " Cause I dont like to stay in school "
- Walks away - .

Went to take Yan's bag & mine, Then went to find anguilia, To sign form of go home paper x; , Thenthen, No one knew i was goin home everyone thought it was Yan's paper x; . So took paper, Signed bag & went down. Couldn't stay in th same room as Yan cause people claimed She was having Fever WDCS . Then Gave her homec paper, & Went Gerneral officesofaa & Dady came, he had tuh go to walk, So cabb home? Yeayea, Then Didnt home. Went Voidyyyyy, * Surprising people pon school, * Talked to Coco, & Everything, Awhile later Darrel came to interupt us x: , He sayys im bad at Biking & I told him, " I hate bikes " He was like UHHHHHH . & Coco is officially Mine :D . Im engaged to her. Hehhs !! . Was VERY tired, So went to Put my bag on th table, & slept on my bag. Coco woke me up, Then wentt s_ with her. The most funny part was, While Timothy was smoking, This lady came down & asked me How old was I , Uniform mah, & why not in school & What school , ( Screw her lah ) Ask so much questions, So walked away, then Coco tried acting Lesbiannish , x; . VERY FUNNY. & My whole mind was like huh huh , & Timothy Went to the lady, & Puffed right at her face. :DDDD . Thanks ah Tim ! LOL .
Saw Sheryl, But didn't talk. && I heard she was suspended today or something x; . ohwellzx. Thenthen, Stayed & Crap. Most likely wanting to meet them tonight. & IM HAVING A HEADACHE. ): .
OHH & I SAW TIM & DARREN'S NEW GIRLF . ^^ .
Both chao ah lian x: Scary scary de. But friendly. HAHAHA . Tsktsk. x: .

I shall go sleep & bath now ^^ .
Byebyes.

LINE/LING POSTED THIS :D .

( Going to Laugh at the next person who doesnt know why Ling ) .

Stupid ,

2009-07-08T16:10:00.000+08:00

I hate getting involved with Beetches,

If you think you're spamming people's tagboard, for th guy you love manymany, Let me tell you one thing only, YOU'RE GETTING NO WHERE. It's whereby that, You're just being a fxckcheebai to come tag my blog alrights. If you got th guts, Just put down your name, You claim that I bite then Come tag for? If You say I offended you in any way, Ask th person related to both of us, For my number, & Then call and talk, Instead of wasting my time here by saying all this shyt? You can cry, & Go back to your mama like some whore, But seriously, from here, You are going no where if you realised, If you lost someone already, Then be it, If he likes me & Not you, let it be, Why can't you just let him go, that I don't understand, I got sooooo many quarrels with lods&Lods of childish beetches like you to come tag my blog already, & therefore, I Won't delete anymore Tags, Cause it's just being very dumb. I can let the whole world see who on earth are you, & what on earth you are saying, But First thing I want to comment on is, Your English Is an Official Failure, Really. Cause I Don't get wdhh you're saying. -.-, Pleasee lah, Want Scold & be some dua ahlian, Also Speakk proper English right? & The only thing that you say is, " Bitch " That's th only thing you call me, (: . & I Don't Lay I finger on you, Neither do I call you names or any shytzx Vulgarity, You might be right, I Think I 14 VeryBig, Maybe so? I think Im bigger than you & thats enough, I only Look Down on you, That means Look Small On You (: . You onlyyyyyyyy have your friends there behind you, & You come spam without a name. (Tsk). I Don't like playing games on guessing Who on earth you are, Cause It's easy to guess how many people I haven't offend yet they claim I offended them. Ohwells. Note that, I Don't force people things they dont like to do. & Im so unlike you, Cause , Uhm , Just very different :D . & I Want tuh say this that, YOUR MIND IS SIMPLY STILL LIKE A PRIMARY 6KID , So Just GROWUP. Im not saying Im not a Kid, Im just saying, You're just acting like a smaller person, When you should be acting more like a Secondary school person. -.-.
If You ever read this post, Good for you, (: & Don't spread rumours that I deleted my blog, I merely moved it, Cause I Don't want my blog tagboard to get dirtied by you, Because, *Ew* No one likes a Dirty Thing (: . My dear little Girl, Happy Living your Life, & If you want him so badly, stop acting like that. Cause I Really can't stand you. -.-,

&& Don't ever forget this,
The next time you come tag my blog, Leave down YOUR Name Cause I Presume that Comfirm your mother or father gave you one, Unless you claim to be a baxtard Then Im sorry for you. Or Put down your number, (: . I Hate People who hide behind the computer, Thinking they are so big behind it, While when they are out, They are just some Small Fry -.- ,

STUPID .

2009-07-06T18:53:00.000+08:00

Wdhh ?

Like who on earthh had the power to judge whether you're an ahlian or nots. & Who would eve be so free ? ._. ,
Why donn't you people just go read this, I think for some, it might just laugh your head off. But for the others, I think it will just go " wthh! Where got rights to judge " just like me and Yeah . Gogo ,

http://aalteam.blogspot.com/ .

It's what they claim a AntiAhlian blog, that wass what AAL stands for . -.- , Like bloodythhhell ?

Confess up,

2009-07-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

Confess up,

Maybe it's time, that I Confessed up, Because, there's simply too many people i have hurt. I have let down, People that had very high hopes in me, & Never ever looked down on me, I'm Sorry.

Girlfriends,
Hazel, Apple, Mocha, Latte, Angie, Agnes, Stephanie, Cherlin, Amiie, Mayy, Angel, Bella, Candy, Celine, Serine, Felicia, Denise, Dephanie, Hilary, Huiying, Nicky, Valerie, Twinkle, TingTing, Mabel, Fiona & Krystal.
I have deeply let lots of you down, & I know that too, I changed alot, Yeah that i can admit, I even made some of you influenced by alittle, Most of you suffered with me when i was suffering, &I could really say, All of you were there for me, when I really lost myself, When I almost Killed myself. You girls have been my bestest, My most awesome one. I Love You babes. But, Don't ever follow my footsteps. I know I did everything wrongly, & it's somehow alittle too late to Turn back, Or maybe there might be even a hope still for me,But I hardly will believe that, Somehow, I lost myself, But Like I said, there's a small me inside of me still . The biggest fear, Is myself. :/ . I really miss the Sentosa, Vivo, Bitching, & everything with you guys. I haven't seen you girls for quite awhilee, I really missed you people ♥.

Bestfriends,
Kelvin, Jayy, Zoe & Sheryl.
4of You guys, So individual note, (: .
Kelvin,
You were there for me, when I wanted to kill people, when I deeply wanted to shout at someone so badly, When I was lacked of money & all that craps, You were there to pay for me, You burned down my 50Dollar Note, & Swore , You were my friend cause of someother random Reasons, But never my Money. You were being a bloody asshole at most of the time, Fooling around and making me feel awkward beside You. But I don't mind, Cause you're one of the greatest friend I have ever known, Even if you're old, or what so ever, You're still my greatgreat friend. (: . Thank You, For Spoiling my day everyday, Pure spoiler, But LineeLovesVin, For being the funniest Himbo Guy there (: .
Sheryl,
I failed you, & I even spoiled almost half of your Youth, Cause I changed your life by bringing you the the Void, Everything changed, Including our friendship. You were the Ultimate fulltime UnBitchy but Very Bitch in my eyes, Bestfriend. Sheryl Dhy, If there was every one day, to for me to turn around, &Change what I done wrong, I'd gladly give that chance of turning around to you, To change. Cause I realy Reather Suffer than You suffering. You have been my most bimbotic Cheerleader, & the richest friend I have ever known so far, & Of course, The prettiest Ever. (: . I Love you into a thousands bits. & You know that too, I hate to threaten you, But yesterday was beyond my control. I didn't know what else to do, Or rather, This morning, Everything was different all a sudden, You wanted yourself to doze off like that, & I took it for your sake. For A bestfriend like you & Zoe, I Rather sufer more than you both, Cause you two gave me the most precious thing that anyone could ever give me, A Secure Love that Felt so different from others things, That no one could ever do. Sheryl, It's not too late, If you turn around, I Promise, I will try too.
Jayy,
My Special Dontknow how we became friends, Friend. (: . That tortured me for 2months, I let you down, Seriously, I think the biggest preson, that i let down was you, As in, Yeah, Or rather Idks, but you're just one of the biggest person, that i let down, Cause you are one of the person, who didn't believe i would do this type of thing, You believed that, Nothing could convince me to go far like this. When ever doubt my words, You were the one who stood up for me, & talked back. When they threw me to the pool which I didn't even know how to swim, & almost drowned, You safed/saved me. When everyone left me alone, You were the only soul there that Accompanied me, & I took you for granted, I Threw you away when I didn't need you at all. I Left you alone when it was your deepest momment, When I needed you, I When so deep inside to find you, Yet i treat you like that in return, You were glad that i forgave you, But I think it shouldn't be you telling me sorry, It should be me. Jayy, Im Sorry, Cause I spoiled everything, Maybe things wasn't supposed to turn out like that, But Thanks Jay. For giving me at least that moment to Scold you though you did nothing wrong, I was stupid for not listening to you, But You're really my Special Friend That I really thank God for giving me, Thanks .
Zoe,
The person that Dragged me back to God, & The one who supports me in everything that I do(?) Besides skippping school, You have been my bestest friend that never changed. Or did, But It's alright with me. I Think, You're another person, That i let down alot, My bestest friend on earth, The one forever next closest to me. Always by my side. Yanny , Line Loves You. lly & ily . iloveyan lineloveyan iloveyou lineloveyou (: . You're Special in everway, Despite everything, you're the best, ( I realised im repeating ) . Neverminds, Just remember, & Tell me that, In everything I do, You won't change your view in me neither would you treat me differently, Alrights ? Cause I dont want to lose you, I dont want to lose such a great friend. The person thats always there. If I ever go lose, in myself, & do everything wrong, the way i treat you will never be different, thats why I dontwant you to treat me differently, FFL ? Cause You're the One&Only Normal person that I see among all this three name listed .

Dance,
Carissa, Carrine, Lucifer, Richard & Benedict.
You all have been the Most stupid people, & the most Fun one. Especially Carrine&Carissa, When I was dying with Gigi & That litle guy with Richard, & Didn't eat for the day cause they couldn't dance their steps right, You went to 7eleven & bought me a Sandwitch, ♥. The day We went Sentosa together, BVB, (BeachVolleyBall) You all were being stupid, Cause 3v3 GuysVsGirls. That was the msot ultimate knowing each other like crazy game, The one that we have never got so close before. Richard, I failed at getting the Dance steps right most of the time, Cause i never had my head in the music, We tried & tried, sometimes we fail & sometimes we pass. Lucifeer & Benedict, It's been great to work in a big group with you two, Dare-ing me to get thrown in the Sky. & lods of times I Fear but never drop. Thankyou. Carrine&Carissa, Dont give up, Cause Dancing is my Passion, I won't drop it. Neither will I stop dancing, Cause it's part of my life, I accept not going to the void, for Dance, I Love You my DA-MATE-rs.

SK1,
Natalie, Terese, Hannah, Joy, Faith, Sarah, Ally, Zoe, Clara, Christilyn, Charmaine& MaeAnn.
Despite all the groups up there, I think The biggest number of people I hurt, Comes from this Group of You, Natalie, Tree, MaeAnn, You three are the Main Biggest 3people from SK1 that I let down the person, The one who had veryvery high hopes in me, Who didn't look down on me, & accepted me for who I am, The three people that I used to always Confide in too, Has been officially the three people that I let down the most, I did so many "badthings" Yet, You love me so much, I Stopped believing In Love, but I don't know, You people just brighten my day, Not only NatTrees&MaeAnn, but the rest of you play a part in my Saturday Life too . I May have hurt you people in different ways that I didnt even Know, So if you're reading this, Im really Sorry. I didn't mean it, It's just, I don't know how come words come out from me without thinking about it. I Felt odd most of the time, but Im getting used to Life with you people, Everything changes, So Do I, Thats why I changed in a way that, I failed Alot of you, Don't hate me. But I really wonder, If a day comes that i really change into a complete different person, Would you guys treat me the same? Really. In every way before this ends, Im sorry thats one thing. Really deeply sorry, I never wanted to change, But life moves with Influences around you, Including all your weird friends around You. I realised I have been putting on a mask infront of you guys most of the time, because I didn't dare to do lots of things infront of you people afraid that you guys would judge me, ( as in some of you ) . Linee's Glad To know you people. But, I somehow think, I Lost my emotions already & I Lost who I am , But there's me somewhere inside of me still I guess..

School,
Kymberly, Evan, Carlyn, Denyse, Germaine, SiewWen, Regina.
LiYuan&Karen.
Kym&Evan, I think your found out earlier on already, As in Yeah, Idkk lah, But Just that Im sorry I make no sense typing th other names there, but Clique, One for all ; All for one. I won't leave out your name one . Just notee, Dont treat me differently, & Im not a chaoahlian for your info .
Karen& Liyuan ,
Idks why i wrote to you both too. but just that, I think I owe Liyuan a Sorry ): . Cause I became, aiyos, tell you on your letter luh, Idkks. ): But everything seems so different all a Sudden. Just Happy O's ing . & Linee's Reallly Sorrrry .

Gans,
All of you guys,
I Might have or already have, Let losd of you guys down, Cause I some how think, You people have much confidence in me, Knowing that people that tried to influence me, I would forever be against it. I don't want to lose you guys, cause I already lost quite a number of you. & I dontwant it to Continue, Cause my Gans are all much loved. Alot of you said you didn't believe I would follow such things, But Look, everything changed, I changed alot. I became even like some of you that warned me not to follow your footsteps. Im really Sorry, I dontwant you people to treat me differently too. I missed the time we spend so much together, Laugh & scream at each other very crazily together. I missed it alot. Lingg really wants you backk like how we spend time in the past, I changed, but I still know you guys, It's not as if I completely dontknow you guys, Unless it's the you guys dontwant to know me back. ): . I Love you people. ManyMany, With all my hearts-

Boyfriend,
LeonChuaYuZhong,
The bestest boyf in the world, Officially mine. &Only Mine. You can Hong, But you know i dont like that, But I won't & don't force you to pick either one. I Love you the way you are, & I dont want things for us to be different, I let you down twice, But I promise to change on it, To get everything right, I Only dontwant alot of things to be different. Babyy I love you & Only you. You caused to be my everything, Making me Smile & Cry . Or Cry then Smile, Or even Smile then Cry. You bursted my anger sometimes, but i never dared to show them to you, Cause I Love you alot. People might tell me things about you, but i choose to ignore it, Cause I only believe what you say & Trust you. Babee. There's no guy other than you so great, Really. The greatest time ever, was when you made me smile like never before. You promised me, Everything. & I Promised you too, & I will keep my promise.
Happy One Month Anniversary Sweetheart, ♥.
040609, 5.25pm 21seconds.

Chinese Sucks,

2009-07-05T11:59:00.000+08:00

EHHHS ,

Pleaseeee , Ignore the most recent post :D .
I Know my cheena sucks, but Can't blame it rightright,
Heh, Tyvm. ^^ .

Music Really makes me Speachless.

Forgive me,

2009-07-04T13:50:00.000+08:00

Babyyy

Baby♥. /
对不起我真希望找到你，但是我答应你，对你的生日。别生气好吗？你知道，我真的爱你，只是给我的时间现在还好吧？我目前还没有很好的状态，我真的没有心情此刻，.

Baby, Just give me time alright?
You know i really deeply love you, But Just not now, Not today. My terms with friends&family are getting worst each day, Please? I only need time to settle everything, But I Promised you, On your birthday, I will make that day for you, Even how badly the time I have, I will sacrifice for you, Everything is worth it, for You. Cause of how many thigns you did to me, it's impossible to repay you back, But the most I could do, Is give you the little happiness that I can possibly giveyou.

I don't want you to lose your trust in me, Cause you broke my heart that night from what you said, You claimed that I didn't want you & wanted other guys, I have many other people to jio me out there, But I don't want them, But only you. &Yeah, I swear I can giveyou a list of them, But can't you see? you're the only person I have wanted. You said, If it was possible you would show me things i wouldn't believe in. Babyyy, why can't you just let my past go? &The only question for you is, Do you trust me now still ?

I claimed to be Stupid. But no offfence, You're deep stealing my heart.
Everymomment without you, my heartache to bits.

Ignore & Thanks.

2009-07-04T11:41:00.000+08:00

Ignore,

Before I start,
If you people aren't related to Sheryl in any way, Or not even close to her. Please don't respond to those Tags alright? Thnk You Very Much.

; I haven't been myself lately, & I really find that rather stupid. Cause I really miss the old me, somehow. I looked back on finally could tell, how many people i really Destroyed deep down. &How many I made them to change. I regretted, really. And I don't even think I can forgive myself for bringing you people there. You seem so happy there, but, deep inside, are you really happy? Cause I can really say this that, " I'm not happy at all, thats why my life ended up at the void ". Sheryl, it's not too late to turn back.

Post later.

Hardcore,

2009-07-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

I deeply,

I Want YANNY; ): , I so need to talk to you.
I Love LEON! , Babyyyyy Where are you ): !
I Miss SHERY; ): , Where's the old you?

I Really deeply desperately need to talk to Someone,
I feel like bursting infront of someone.

Off to S_ .
I really can't take the blow any longer -

Topshop!!

2009-07-03T17:55:00.000+08:00

Shopping ForTheWin!

:D, I have been Skipping school naturally this week, Ohwell, I skipped 3Days, & Went for 2Days! At least i went for 2 days rightrights, But! I'll Go school next week one lah :D . Teeheez.

My days been spending with the Void, & The most awesome Bitch in the world, Coco. &&The next Queen of Bitch, Sheryl.D♥. (Sheryl lovelyy, if you read this, don't stop reading, cause there's something for you at the endd) . Yeapyeap, I'mmmmm starting to dislike the void manymany muchmuch, But the people there are simply the most Awesome, & StephSteph, Congrats? You seem Proud of it still And not sad, Even when I did that, I cried like shytzx kay. Hahhaa, But at least you're alrightt. ^^ .

:D, Within a week from not going to school, I saw my recipts, &Boombzxz I realised I Really spend alot of Money! Kays.

Topshopped Today, :D. Boom a 113Dollar on myyyyyy lovelyyy pinkkdress ! *Thankyou Mama* . :D .

Ohwellllzxzx, ! Going out with Coco tonight x; . But dontfeel like so maybe not going? Haha, &Yesyes, KAREN, Tomorrow's a EXTREAM date. I dont care dontdontdont care! (: . &Cheerup lovely kay! LinelovesYou.

&Yeaps, Post more later or tomorrow or something, Seeyouzx.

It's when I don't believe in Love any

Longer.

Sheryl♥/

No one claimed it was your fault.

No one could stop you from going there.

You changed, You completely did.

I regretted, bringing you to the Void.

I can be one, But I dont want you to end up,

Like me. Sheryl, Will you Stop ?

I can't. But maybe you will, &Really.

Trust me that you have a brighter&Better

future, You're not the ultimate bitch there yet,

You won't even close to Coco, But, after

everything happened, You completely became

Like her, My heart cries out to you everynight.

I Really Want you to change, I Want to Pray.

I don't know how, But Sheryl, You're different.

You can be a pretty superr lovely Asshole there.

But You, Can't be a AL in my face .

I don't want My Sheryl to be different,

You're my bestest, Why change?

SherylDhyYueHui(Or whatever cheena name)

I Want you back, I don't want to lose you.

You can be Darrel's back, He didn't ask for the break.

He merely asked you, It was your choice to break.

I Messed Awesome four up, But I don't want

to ruin your relationship with Darrel.

He's Joshua bestfriend, &You're my bestfriend,

That doesnt even have to prove you have to breakup

with him, to stick with me?

I remember those days we went shopping together,

Bimbo-ing around, Crapping around, & Especially

Shouting in the malls together.

I Don't want your night life to continue,

I don't want you to go back there .

I don't want to lose you,

But at this rate, it's like as if,

If you want your nightlife, You dont need me any longer.

Sheryll, Please?

- I dont want to cry Any Longer. -

Love You,

2009-07-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

Leon, I Love You. ♥
Into a thousand Bits & More.

yayy , Skipped school .

2009-07-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

I Still feel like the holidays though!

My night been crazyyyy this few days ^^ . So love it manymany.

I'm deeply in loev with my girlfriend name Coco! ♥, Mainly cause she has a pure bitch face (: . &She disturbs me everynight @ Void. & The only person who talks to me when I am High :D . IKISSEDAGIRLANDILIKEDIT . thanks uh Coco. neverminds :D . Babe I love you manymany. !

._. , Im litterally dying cause of my heart, Thanks to Smokeeeeeee/ing. Stupid lor, I just found out that i have to go for a dammmmmwit checkup soon? Like what the fucking hellzx.

& Yesyes, Congrats to my awesome Stephanie for causing herself Pregnant! :D . Don't worry, everything Won't be fine, Cause I will love you even more!
HAHAHA , That proves you can't screw lovely Line anymore ! :D . TEEHEEEEEEEEEEZ. Budden, not only you. Safe me . ._. , By the way, fxck you hardhard Coco ! For lying to me ): . &&Jeremy, Jonathan, Alex, Timothy, IM SO NOT FOR SALE FOR SCREWING OR FXCKING. ( Im very against that ) . (: . Okay, im just being wuliaooooooooozxzxz here. im veryvery the bored. kays.

I
Love
My
Boyf .
♥

Odd one out,

2009-06-28T12:12:00.000+08:00

Odd one Out, .

I may be someone that you people might not have expected, but all I know, im at least still me Deep Inside, Even how far lost I am. I'm still me, Right?

I always tell myself, " I want to get back with life, with everything right. " But looks like, I really can't make everything right, even if I try, it goes misplace again? Heard of " Once bitten Twice Shy " Guess lods of you heard of this Line, &Yeah, maybe I was once bitten bitten & now th twice shy. But, I never wished or thought Life would stop the adventure going on, Or rather, I don't dare to take that Faith to walk again. Because, I'm Scared, I never got so frighten before, But I admit, Im scared that, One day, Someone Holds my hand & Walk with me, Then let me go after awhile, I Don't want that day to come. I want to trust people, But I can't. You want to gain my trust, Can, but will you promise me that, You will really really never walk away? Will you turn around and walk away without me? Some might have already walked far enough away infront, & Turn around back for me, to walk through again, over with me. & I Thank those people (: . But, I Simply got this feeling of falling & cant standing back up straight. I might sound stupid here, but yeah that's true. Some say Life is not what you wish or want it to be, but it's what you get. & I somehow believe in that.

Smoking, Slitting, Drinking, &Night Life, can those change?

I think that, I Let you people down, You try so hard, but fail for alot of things cause of me. I want your hand, But I dont want it, Get it? Or make it in simple terms, I want your help, But i refuse to accept it. Because All forms of help I get from you people are only helps that others have to be involved with. &I dontwant that ! It takes Months to build up a trust in a friendship, It takes years to heal the hurt given to one person.

I admit,
I feel like im dragging lods of Your Life .

you think you so big i scared?

2009-06-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

Fuck , Who's bigger.

Fuck , You think you so big uh ?
Some small fry with no ballz.
Shut your fucking mouth up,
& Stop claiming those shytz .
You think I Like living with you ?
You're just some Asshole fxcktard.

Got guts, then come back lah,
Run away and Cry right ? .
Cheebaiz .

2009-06-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

Sheryl's Chasing .

Sheryl tagged me on Blog. Cause I didn't go out with her & Now she's bored ): .
Phil Tagged me On Facebook th same one too ! .
So Guess I'd do, Since I am rather bored too (: .

But before I Start,
I Tag, Another 10 People.

1)Apple,
2)Kymberly,
3)Evan,
4)Denyse
5)Zoe,
6)Carissa,
7)Carrine,
8)Huizhong,
9)LiYuan,
10)Vanessa

Asked someone to marry you?
I Ain't so ThickSkin !

Kissed one of your Facebook friends?
Yeaps .

Danced on a table in a bar?
Bar, No .

Ever told a lie?
Big&Small Lies. ): .

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
Hahah, yeah .

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
SameSex Kissed me. Cheek !

Kissed a picture?
Yeap, xx: , It was pretty stupid though !

Slept in until 5 PM?
Of course, All th way to the next day even.

Fallen asleep at work/school?
You Think? (: . Sleeping's my passion too .

Held a snake?
Touched .

Been suspended from school?
Yeahzxzx .

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
(TooRich to Work) . *Kidding . But No.

Stolen from a store?
Somehow, yeah, ( I didnt know why idid that ) .

Been fired from a job?
Haven't even worked, Who dare fire me (: .

Done something you regret?
Veryvery big, Veryvery big regret.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
No ? (eww) .

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
^^ uhhm ! yeapyeap.

Kissed in the rain?
Yeap (: . .

Sat on a roof top?
Yeah . With lovelyy .

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
uhh, I guess so ?

Sang in the shower?
No . x; .

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Of course -.- , My birthdayyy .

Shaved your head?
NO .

Slept naked?
Nopes ? -.- ,

Had a boxing membership?
No . zxzxzx .

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Yeahh . :// .

Been in a band?
Nope, But Gang :D

Shot a gun?
I want to (:

Donated Blood?
Nopes !

Eaten alligator meat?
Pure Gross . -

Eaten cheesecake?
It was my previous fav . ♥

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Haha, Yeah (:

Have/had a tattoo?
I Wannnnnnt ! .

Like someone, but will never tell who?
(: . Maybe ?

Been too honest?
Yeah ,

Ruined a surprise?
Nope .

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards?
Nopes .

Erased someone in your friends list?
Childish , did that.

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Yeah, (: . I looked real Small in guys clothes kayz .

Joined a pageant?
Nopes, If Miss&Mr Elias is counted, thhen, They picked me?

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Yeah ,

Had communication w/ your ex?
Duhzxzx .

DATING Someone?
Secret (: .

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Yeahhs . Flunk th paper !

A total stranger treat you by paying your public transportation fare?
Yeaps .

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
I think so .

It's About me,

2009-06-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

ShortBrief ! ♥

I woke up in a Devasted world, 140295
Mama&Papa gave my th name, Winiline,
Grewup in a perfect lovely neighbourhoodat, Pasir Ris
&Of course, with my 3Annoying Brothers,

I Made Photography & Dancing a Passion of Mine.
Balloons, Are super much Loved
Paris&Rome Are definitely th most lovely place to me
Pink&White is Yesyes, my Colours too.
I'm a Type which love Shopping&Parties

I Have, 2 BestFemaleFriends, Sheryl&Zoe.
&Of course, 2StupidMaleFriends too, Kelvin&Jayy.
I Want to Runaway to a place, where I can Never be Found

I Have Night, Afternoon, Evening & Morning Lifes
I Lead my life, th way i want to Lead It .
I Envy People's Past, Present& Future
Because I Find it, Lovely.

I Come From God's Hands.
People who Insult My God, will get deadly more Insulted by Me.
Riverlife Is where my Lovely SK1 is.
SK1 has th bestlovely Girls, In it.
Tree&Nat Are my Super Leaders.

I Play Audition,
& I'm a Level23 Amateur
Leon's Indeed my Couple in it.
Gan's Inside are obviously Awesome.

I Can be childish all I want, & That doesn't give you th Rights to Judge me.

I Know Deep inside, Im still myself, Somewhere.
No matter How Lost I am, Im willing to dig myself up.
& Find th real my inside.
I Don't plan to give up anymore, I don't plan to do lods of things anymore.
I can befriend with you, But i might even turn out to be your worst nightmare.
I Promise, I would try, To be back th old Winiline,
Would you give me your hand, To get me out? .

Kelvin,

2009-06-23T16:08:00.000+08:00

I won't entertain any.

Heyys, If you're one of those passerbys, I won't entertain.

&&Kelvin
Don't you go scold kay :D.
Teeheez. lineeeloveeesyouuu .

DONT DO IT .

2009-06-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

ThankYous,

To those people up there :D . A really really big Thankyou!

But those up there are friends that has been near oneyear in my guess & more ^^ .
They have been th greaetst.
Making me Cry Laugh Pissed, What soever. But they're my Closest. & Getting more to be like a Family of Mine. ♥

I FUCKING HATE YOU .

2009-06-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

I FUCKING HATE YOU .

STOP BEING TH ALL SO GREAT PLEASE, I SERIOUSLY WONDER, WHY MUST YOU DO EVERYTHING, BECAUSE OF MY BLOG ? FINEE. IF THAT'S BECAUSE, THEN I JUST SHUT MY MOUTH THEN. REALLY. CONTINUE LYING AND OFF YOU GO, FXCKING CHEEBAIIZXZ.

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&&,

I HATE YOU .

Escape with Christilyn :D !

2009-06-16T17:09:00.000+08:00

Escape

:D , Escaped with Sheryl Yesterday,
But she left early & With Christilyn too (: .
& SHERYL IS SO NOT CAMERA SHY D: .

Photooshooot withh herr coming upzxzx ♥'
:D . !

Photos up soon!

FOr now, Tag replys first!

Lazy to reply all tags.

So for thoe i remember only :D

Carissa&Carrine -
Okay x: . I miss you too, & Sorry i have been miss da mate! HAHAH, Duhs Carrine will of course miss me, & MOCHA&LATTE. they only miss me x: where got will miss you onee. bhb lahh you !

Jayy -
Haha, Good for you then. :D . Flunk it, yes iknow x: . !! Im happy lah, I will let go, Everyone's telling me that :D .

Sheryl.D -
Beetch, :D you're missing th fun out. But then , I want fotooo shoot i dontcare! :D. Hahahas,

Hazel&Hilary&Apple -
You x: . 3, i randomly type kay. !! HILARY , :D I MISSYOU . STOP SAYING THOSE CRAPS! APPLE, YOU RICH LAH -.- , HAZEL YOU ALSO x: . Kayys, You 3 are awesomely weird x:. im sorry about th sentosa trip alrightzxzx.

DEPHANIE -
Thank you hunneyy! , ♥

Sweetheart -
Hahhas :D . iloveyous !

Germaine Khong! -
You rock like the stone, I rock like :D. idk . but better than you! HAHAHA, Missyou lods. promise to meetup soon alrights :D

MAINEMAINE.L , -
:D Thankyous, but you sure 24hours. what time you sleep huhs :D . & you dont even understandd kayz .

Stranger, -
Hmm, Thanks. but you dont even see my picture. Weird ass. :D

Farizan & Qiuyan & Shafina & Hidayah
Yes i will relink & Link soon :D & Update th birthday :D

Yuntiann, -
I saw yuhui&yueting yesterday at escape kay x: . Yueting's meann, Yuhui's weirdd but both pure chio kay x:. I saw th whole of lucifer & gang too. HAHA . She chaoahlian, Not me alrightszxzx :D

Kayla, -
x: . Nuer you chaoahlian lah, not me alrightzxzx . :D

Coco-
Okay, thanks beetch
Ihateyou cause of your face ): & Your everything (jealous) HAHA, iluvyous.

Gigi-
Stalk me uhhs, how you found my blog worhs :D .

Amiie -
teehees. :D

Joseph -
Im not a asshole, you go die lah, Piglet :D !

NICKYTXY -
OMG , IMISSYOU . CAN YOU GO OUT WITH ME THIS WEEK? REALLY ! ): ): !

CANDY -
SORRY I HAVENT BEEN HOPING TO YOUR PLACE THIS FEW DAYS x: . Very long since i saw you hahahas. !

watch it, Fire my world.

2009-06-13T11:59:00.000+08:00

Fire my world,

There will never be a light,
But only fire to burn down,
Everything there is inside.

But is everything True?

Maybe so, Light in my world, I can't even imagine having a light. All I can imagine is, Fire burning down everything inside of me, I really wonder, How broken more can I go? Far Far away, Im broken, & here I can tell Every bit of me is not Even trying to stick those broken piece back, How stupid of me Right. But I don't even see a differents if I stick it back or not, Even if I do, There will still be a Scar. No offence right? I'm literally irritated by myself. But what else can I do? This is Life, & Life is always meant to be like this (: . Agree ? Some of you might say " What's going on in Linee's Mind ." But Nothing's going wrong, &I'm just only Trying to follow what you people always tell me to do, to Look on the brighter side of life, instead of facing darkness Every single day. Look. I woke up, I found out. Life is meant to be Live it, Done it. Wake up every morning, Same routine. Everyday, Same thing happens. What does Life really means to me, let me tell you, I won't even Cherish this life of mine anymore, Cause I find myself only Half a life, So what's the point. I may not Sound like Winilineee here, But I am. See ? The girl that you people knew, 1995-2009, She's still breathing, 14February. At least i'm still alive. Unlike some. &I can promise you, I will live this life that has No meaning, Because Suiciding is Selfish, So I won't do it. I might be crazy now, I might be out of my mind. But I'm perfectly unfine, & No One Understands. Even if you try to, You wont even get how Complicated it's like. I might be a Person that seems Happpy towards everyone. Because all of you people copied my line "If you're sad, I will be sad too, If you cry, I would cry too" . So I am Happy (:

I will go on with Routines in life that I know I would be doing, But if I don't find a purpose in doing them, Maybe I won't even try finding them. So I might go MIA-ing for some events at the momment (: . Or not at the momment. But yeah, My Dance assholes, I will not be leaving that (: . Cause I'm in Love with Dancing, Especially with you people around. Yeahs.

I wonder, have you people, ever tried holding someone's hand, but failed to hold it tight? Or, have you ever had something so close to you, that you literally lost it? &If you really wonder, how miserable life can be when you lose something like that, Go try losing something very precious to you, Just like it has a SoulTie with you. &Imagine how those grave would go about. &Don't you dare try losing me okay, Cause when you lose me, I would drown myself in the Sea, & never be found again. Cause I simply Hate those feelings. Not kidding. I lost someone, that was very precious to me, I didn't treasure him/her. &When I lost it, I realised how painful it was, &How you won't be able to let it go, Really.

I Envy many of you, Having Such Great & Really Happy life, Despite the fact that, Some of you might have Problems in your life, You great Problems aren't so big, Aren't like mine. So Yeah, I really Envy you people & Wonder why don't you people treasure your life more. Unless when you say it's worst or more or less something like me. Then yeah, maybe You won't even be bothered to cherish life. (: . Life's like a box of chocolates, When it's hot & tiring, it tends to melt. But if we stay strong, we might not even melt during hot times.

Nights have past since the day, of the worst thing. But everynight it simply comes to my mind, what happened, & why. I might be stupid, I might be idiotic, You might claim that I am Naive, or what so ever. You can lie to me, You can trick me all you want, but seriously, What do you gain in return? Only for me to Suffer. Right? But at the end of the day, when the results are out and everything, You suffer too, but I simply take 10x of it more than you. Cause when you're not even here. I completely feel like, The whole world abandoned me. I can chagne my attitude, my character, my looks & everything, But deep inside, isn't it still me? The broken one, the one who can possible never ever find Love & Happiness? Yeaps, You're right that I'm Joyful & Cheerful. What ever, but ask yourself, do you see the inside of me at all? Do you people get how I feel by what you say sometimes? I can cry all I want silently, But I still don't know why, I simply can't breakdown infront of others anymore. All I do most of the time, is just Cry myself to sleeps now? Unless when you say about that, I might even cry infront of you. But I don't want to, Even if I cry, do you people understand it still? I Can go crazy, I Can go irritating, & I can drive myself till I get insane. Correct. Strokes i make, Blood i spill out, There's always a Scar in ever hurt there is. No matter what, Isn't it ?

I Can hardly concentrate or anything, cause in my mind, everything is just all focused on what happened, the night, that night. I lost basically my appitite on everything. I can't sleep at times now, or rather, I can hardly sleep in the night. I'm in the sudden of not wanting shopping anymore, All I want to do is just stay home & Close my eyes, & Not wake up anymore.
Tell me, Why is everyone filled with high hopes and everything, Why am I worthless, why is everything falling on me? All I know, Is sleep&cry. I don't want to move, I don't want to go anywhere right now.

Why isn't life the way I want it to be like.
Why is life so difficult to control.
Why is everything not even in my control.
Why is everything haunting me.
Can I die now, 19 today, 99 tomorrow.
Strokes, Blood, Pills, Injection.

Stop pretending,

2009-06-13T01:58:00.000+08:00

Stop pretending, Why can't you just make time for me?

You can plan, for others. & Make time for them, why not me? I've lost count of how many times I asked you out, & You rejected me. Stupid right. If you're so great at doing that, Why don't we just stop being so nice to each other? Like really. I hate it where by, I read your blog & see your facebook picttures & There. Another date with another person that asked you out LATER than me. Wowws. Really .
I don't even wish to see you
A nymore.

Thankyouuuuuuu . Hope you know who you are.
For a GreatFriend, wows.
You cause me, to be like this, & I only blame it on You.